END OF 2008!!

And on the last day of 2008, pris sang with her bestest K buddies, bought her waist belt, and

































REGISTERED FOR DRIVING!!!


1st prac lesson - 16 Jan
BTT - 23 Jan

Overall aim: PASS DRIVING BY MID-APRIL.

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nothing to recap for 2008.
wasn really a pleasant year, with alot of conflicts, tears, lies, and many more.
but at least i still had the old friends to support me through.

really hope 2009 will be a muchmuchmuch better year.

Some aims for 2009:
1. PASS DRIVING BY APRIL!!
2. GPA 3.7 & get into cardio tech
3. exercise more and lose xx kg
4. be nicer to everyone, trust more, stop being so easily irritated
5. save 8k

i shall go indulge myself in a quiet countdown with oranges. haha

i was sososo tired yesterday that i stoned through the whole day, hugging the bigbig present SMs gave me. and i stoned through the 4b gathering.
continue to stone today.

no more stoning tml, coz imma going to register for driving, and go k with haoning, lilin and ambroseeeeeeee. hahah

i dont like you liar

18! finally.




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special thanks to the manymany who wished me happy birthday.
in no particular order
Dear, Keng guan, Azmi, Junxian, Peizhen, Jonk, Evon, Eli, Yuen, Bridget, Kenneth, Zhipeng, Shan, Candy, Fanny, Lynette, Zhaogen, Ambrose, Chuying, Yiting & Weiqi (thanks for the surprise phone call), Ken Khoon, Kim, Li Lin, Clara, Michelle, Sathish, Seow, WeiLing, Julaiha, Irene.
and xoxo((((((((((((:
and of course daddy, mummy, lil brat, ahma, yiyi, apple, jiujiu, shenshen((:




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nownow, i think this year's birthday is the best in many years i can rmb.
this year, i got to celebrate with ahma on the 27th, ahma was super happy de la
today, i got to celebrate with dearest DEAR!!!

touched up my bsbm report in the morning.
then made daddy send me to bedok mrt to train to orchard to meet dear. shopped at OG & JL, then to Paragon for lunch-cum-dinner at Ding Tai Feng. then to Far East to do more shopping. Dessert break at SLICES for yummy ice. then to Wisma for more shopping.



Although my heels were killing me, i still had a WONDERLICIOUS TIME WITH DEAR!! ((((:





thank you prettypretty super wonderful DEAR!! and omg, i love the bracelet dear gave me!!



am still waiting for my buffet treat from mummy and daddy and i shall be really satisfied with my 18th birthday. quiet but satisfying.
and my silent wish came true!! (((((((((((((((((((((:




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cannot wait for time to pass a lil faster.
so i can meet the 4b ppl for dinner tml.
so i can meet haoning for K on wed.
so i can meet twelve for outing on thrus.




well, hey,

PRIS IS FINALLY EIGHTEEN!!!!







and i love dear till i go spastic.

just when i thought everything seemed bleak and was just about to give up,
your msg came to remind me of my existance in your life.
i'm still somebody.


THANK YOU!! (((: *hugs*


xoxo

its 1 more day!
and it looks like my silent wish will come true pls?

FREAK YOU ALL.
I AM NO LONGER A KID.
I DON'T NEED KIDDISH PRESENTS ANYMORE.
TYVM.

i sound like a materialistic ungrateful bitch, but i dont care. i really dont need a furry photoframe, lacy pyjamas and pinkish unclassy minute jewellery box.
talk about disappointment


the only present that i'm super happy with is the money given by first aunt, which i used to buy the beeyoutifool kimono top.
and the present which should have came long ago, the hair straightener


gosh. what a bad x'mas this year.
happy boxing day ya.


dearrrr, can you plan my birthday outing for me, pretty please.
cause i'm still sadsad over the fact that there's nomore nicenice buffet for my 18 birthday. yucksyuckks. i'm celebrating with ahma. :((
badbad eoy

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

imma happyhappy girl yesterday and today ((((((:

met up with kimkim, xuanxuan, deardear for dinner at waruku!! yummyyummyyayyay!!

then shopping with dear at tampines today!! ((: bought a babydoll top from cotton on and a same kimono top as dear!! hahaha. dear loves shopping with pris la, coz i help her find clothes hohoho.
butbut i'm rather broke alr la. spent 50+ today alr.
butbut nvm, i'mma still going shopping with dear on sundayyy!! weeeee :DDDD


meeting sucker tml at the lib so he can teach me stupid excel. rawrs.


BYEEES

i am in need of desperate shopping because i just cleared 3 big bags of clothes from my old cupboard and i need more clothes to fill my new bigbig wardrobe.
but i am in need of desperate cash because i just busted 100bucks on my jeans but i still need prettypretty clothes for cny.
but my most precious dear is to the rescue and i'm going to shop with dear tml yay!! i love my dear and i should be spending my birthday with dear yay!! lousy mummy's gging to jb can


and hahaha, i switched off all those stupid notifications from stupid facebook, and tagged and all those shit. because i hate receiving mails that some idiot superpoked me or asking me to reply those stupid things. i have better things to do, like cursing those idiots. HAHAHA.


BYEEEE~

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my new earhole!! (((:
hehhehheh. i finally pierced it yesterday tgt with loveli and yuenny. fucking pain but, me like!! :DDDD dear don angry with me ok.

shall post the gazillion of photos taken yest at clark quay when i get it from loveli and yuenny. ((: love themm.




zoo with the class today was quite fun. the childish guys are super childish laa.



emoemo prispris sayyys byebye

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LILIN!! ((:

i am as stupid as a stupid dumbass toot dumbo.
to think that i can still think about what present to give you for x'mas
when everything is just dust under thicker layers of dust.

i hate my guts to still be able to harbour hope that things might take a turn for the better.
fuck it la.
all stupid nonsensical dreams.
go away. shooshooshoo

the silly girl elieli got too much time to spare, but dont want to go out with me, so she did this for me. hahaha. saves me time from uploading manymany photos. lols




wa lao, i look damn spastic and short

and i think i damn haolian laaa.

pray this gets me a distinction. lols.


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evon tagged me. and i'm so bored and not in report mood, so i decided to do it.


1 . Who's the person that tagged you :
evon


2 . R/s between you & her:
current classmates

3 . Three impressions of her :
- loud
-like to suan ppl
-helpful

4 . If they become your enemies :
i dunno


5 . What will you say to the person you like very much :
nothing. i shy de.

6 . Characteristics I like about myself :
i dunno.. perfectionist?

7 . Characteristics I hate about myself :
too perfectionist. keeping things to myself


8 . For the person who you hate , you say :
f you. go and die.

9 . What do people feel about you :
dao, emo, tempremental
10 . Your crush :
crushed

11 . Pass this to 10 people .
1. Shuhuan
2. Eli
3. Yuen
4. Li Lin
5. Kim
6. Zhiyu
7. chongxiang
8. hayden
9. zhaogen
10. ambrose


12 . If 5 & 7 were together ?
never possible.

13 . Who does 5 likes ?
i dunno lehhs. you ask her la


14 . What colour does 9 likes ?
black?

15 . Say something about 8 ?
i miss xiao hey!

16 .Who is 2 ?
my silly girl. my loveli. my cheap thrill partner

17 . Talk about 3 ?
she can be as emo and crazy as me. my soon-to-be drinking partner.

18. Who is 10's best friend ?
MEMEME.. lols

19 . Who's the sexiest among all ten ?
me lehhs. haha. no la. all of them are damn sexy.

20 . What colour does 4 like ?
hmmms. pink/white/blue? i forgot

21 . Is 4 single ?
single but unavailable

22 . Your relationship with 1 ?
(:

23 . Are 5 & 6 best friends ?
nah. they dont even know each other

24 . 9's surname ?
kwek

25 . 7's nickname ?
xiao didi, cx

26 . Say something to 3 ?
CLARK QUAY AND DRINK!

27 . Say something to help 9 ?
you dont need my help! lols

28 . Who do I admire ?
dear

29 . Where does 1 lives ?
the very colourful building at paya lebar

30 10 of them know who you like ?
noooooo.

31 .Say something to 6 when you see her ?
hello

32 . 10's spouse ?
ASK HIM!!!! haha.. his camp bed

i'm done. gging to slack before sending my shorts to the tailor and to NN's hse for dinner

我和你从未分手- 潘裕文

心是片土地 我是一个园丁
种一朵花叫做爱情
呵护著不离不弃
当花季远去 眼泪带我旅行
你好吗 我好想你
常常写信寄给回忆
我和你从未分手 你住在我心中
谁也不能把你赶走
一颗心只有一份永久
给了谁就无法回收
我和你从未分手 你活在我爱中
不准人来人往挑拨
一个错要花几倍伤痛
才能扭转时空 重回感动
重回笑容 手牵手
空空的夜空 城市燃起灯火
每一盏灯一种寂寞
愿你幸福别漂流
蓝蓝的忧愁 搬进我的生活
越想放手越是紧握
越往前走越是回头
我和你从未分手 你住在我心中
谁也不能把你赶走
一颗心只有一份永久
给了谁就无法回收
我和你从未分手 你活在我爱中
不准人来人往挑拨
一个错要花几倍伤痛
才能扭转时空 重回感动
重回笑容 手牵手
我没用 多没用
我推开窗户思念一直推不走
我在梦里掉了一个梦
我和你从未分手 你住在我心中
谁也不能把你赶走
一颗心只有一份永久
给了谁就无法回收
我和你从未分手 你活在我爱中
不准人来人往挑拨
一个错要花几倍伤痛
才能扭转时空 重回感动
重回笑容 手牵手


i cried when i heard the song last night. arghs.

afterall, after so long of not thinking about it all, everything just came rushing back during the 3 days of work. w/o the everything that used to be present, it felt like everything became more bland than ever. in addition to the teasing from the 2 of them, there were times when i really felt like breaking down, but it never came. it sucked really big time i swear.

it started, but never ended. its like this never ending journey of guessing what we are both thinking. a maze where we never seem to find a common point to continue.


missing everything like fuck. come back to me, past.


the song's just a relation, it doesn mean literally

BYEBYE to the yucky mugging MSTs!!! =DDDDD
YOYO to the lovely reporty HOLIDAYS!!! XDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXD

met up with loveli and jialing after papers. love them to bitsbits.
worked with mummy, elvin, alex at expo from sat to mon. stupid usuals revoked my feelings for xyz again man. rawrsss.
went to NHC just now for some lookabout and stuff. hollymama. i'm so going to want to choose cardiac option. i wanna learn moremoremore about the heart. im crazyyyyy.
KFC-ed & random shopping with my bro. blahs. hahaha.

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on another hand,
my holiday schedule is not really up yet. haha
so far,

10/12 - biophysics report meeting, duty
12/12 - duty
13/12 - shopping with family
14/12 - shopping with clara
15/12 - movie with Li Lin
17/12 - Li Lin's bday, duty
18/12 - shopping with love
19/12 - PTN
20/12 - shopping at JB
21/12 - KBox with cousins
22/12 - CIP, waaruku with dear, kim, qi
24/12 - day dinner, duty
25/12 - X'MAS!!!
26/12 - makan outing
28/12 - MY BIRTHDAY!! ((:

actually its quite full le hor.. haha.

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and hahaha, i've been bloghopping quite frequently these few days, and i've come up with my longlonglong wishlist alr. hahah.
lets see:

1. black/navy dress e.g



i really like this dress





2. This top from HERE





3. printed hoodies e.g





4. vests e.g

5. skirts e.g



6. black, white, electric blue MANGO racerback

7. pink NIKE bottle

8. GUESS/BILLABONG wallet

9. square buckle belt, floral waist belt

10. watch

11. gemstone sandals

pictures from: hollyhoque.livejournal, robotninjas.livejournal, sweetvinyl.livejournal, hollysurprise.livejournal, sweetvinyl.livejournal, willove.livejournal

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what a long post.

BYEEE

prispris has manymanymany reasons to be a happy girl until saturday ends!!

1. i finally got my first 25/25 for a test!! :DDDD ignore the fact that it was quite easy and 6 people for full marks. i'm happy and thats that!!
2. my chem teacher promised me a piece of lovely clothing from online if i get full marks for my MST!! and i am SOSOSO going to work damn hard for it!! weeeee~
3. my brobro finally bought me my mouse for my lappy!! ((:
4. there's no school tml, and i can hole up and own the library with dumbo tml.
5. i will be meeting eyegang on saturday!! (((((((((: WEEEEEEEEE!! i cnt wait man.. i miss the girls sososo much!!! wooohoooo~


i shall be happy and watch some teevee before some mugging!!


:DDDDD

i woke up early just to have breakfast with the other 3 family members, and decided to do my part of GEMs ppt. but, i have no idea of how to do it. and i got to do future developments, solutions and conclusion lehhhs. how to do when i don't have info, and the whole issue has died down, and its like a million miles from here, and isn it solved so how am i supposed to tell you to solve it. and i don't have the million info they're using and i cnt do conclusion.

so my conclusion is that i shall go do some constructive stuff, and wait for someone to wake up and come online so i can ask. obegood to me for ponning meeting to go shopping.

i suddenly rmbed something that Li Lin told me yesterday

its impossible for a guy & a girl to just be platonic friends, unless you have resentment for the other person

and it got me thinking..
till now, i have had 3 good male friends. by good friends, i mean that i will msg him whenever i am happy, whenever i am sad, whenever i need someone to talk to.

and we have,

firstly and the longest, nightmareeeee. hahaha. i have no resentment for nightmare lehhs. ever since he took us in sec 2, he has been helping the squad, and after that, helping me in my everyday life also!! nightmare's a reallyreally super on buddy man. he always has a share of my problems!! sad guy la he, stuck with my problems for so long!! NO RESENTMENT!! nightmare rockkkks.

secondly, loser. wellwell, resentment was present like sec3/sec4. hahahaha. dear knows why. hahaha. but now loser is part of the category of the good friends. tell me if your friend will help you transfer money for ur online purchases and nv chase you to return!? gotgotgot?! loser is lehhs. hahaha.

lastly, and most recently, sucker. what to say. sucker is sucker. refer to blahblahblah. i shall not say much.


SO, as much as i want to agree, i have to disagree with Li Lin. hahaha.


on another note,
i still cnt wait for holidays. i alrd thought of things to do, people to ask out. haha.
there's
1. movie with Li Lin,kim
2. meetup with the doctors
3. night drinking/spastic/crazy/shopping with yuen and eli
4. shopping with clara
5. 2d bbq
6. squad outing / nightmare
7. makan outing
8. K with HN
9. birthday dinner with family
10. DEAR (holidays are not holidays if i dont meet dear pls)
and sadly,
11. my laptop, for reports. :(


i shall go make myself happy with the many things i can do during the holidays.

byes. its all so obvious, yet obscure

because of her, i had a great afternoon today. MOS Burger brought back lots of memories, lots of gossips and talks exchanged.
walked ard bugis street. bought my skinny belt, and an emo tee! yayyay. haha super emo pris yo.
had tea, and talked somemore.

THANKS LOVELY!!


to end it off,

i hope things are obvious enough for you

officially veryveryvery fucking pissed.
fucking program we have to load


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i need a hug desperately now, totally
feeling like a total crap, ultimate depression




and i miss my EYEGANG like f***, seriously. they're in post-As now, yet i'm stuck in this !#%*&. i so want to go crazy with them, go overseas with them, go do legal things with them. i want holidays to come like, RIGHT NOW. come to me holidays, will you?


hell ya, i shall go mugmugmugmugmugmug my time away, so stupid MSTs will go away, and holidays will come, and i won't be so :( :( :( :( :(


but first, i shall sweep bugis street tml.. say yay to retail therapy, and yay to lovely girl!!
and i thank my lovEli for talking to me ok, 我的爱


and my bro is damn pro la, he fixed my vista! nananah loser, i aint going to throw my compaq away. haha

and i need nightmare now alsoooooo. nightmare, nightmare time for you to reappear plsssss




i shall go say hello to my notes.



想想想了又怎样
不说谁也不知道






but before that,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLARA!!!

i love the way you know my schedule
i love the way you make me feel like a blob yet make me smile
i love the way you know how to make me happy
i love the way you disturb me

but,
love's nothing
but only dreams



anws,
yucksyucksyucks
my lappie is down again la freak.
my beloved vista's not working!!!
rawrs.
so pissed with compaq alr la grrrrrrr



and plsplspls, do not try me

because of the whatever advantages we feel we can get from any relationship, be it friendship or boy-girl relationship,
we lie
and lie with our eyes wide open.

the world is filled with wide-eyed liars
everyone is.
me included.


this freaking world is so damn complicated that you don't know who's the one who is truely truthful to you. how fucking complicated can this supposedly simple world be.


on the other hand, i am very looking forward to friday thank you. i can finally meet and shop with my lovely girl. (:

Breathe Again - Juwita Suwito

Have you wondered how it feels when it's all over
Wondered how it feels when you just have to start a new
Never knowing where are you going
When you face a brand new day
It used to be that way
Now I just close my eyes and say


I just wanna breathe again
Learn to face the joy and pain
Discover how to laugh a little,
cry a little, live a little more


I just wanna face today
Forget about the woes of yesterday
Maybe if I hope a little, try a little more
I'll breathe again


Starting out again is never easy
Disappointments come and gone
But life still moves on
With the better flock
It's a brand new start that might just work my way
No need to walk away Don't wanna leave lives replay


Things will work out fine
If you can find the courage to look past the night
To see the break of dawn

i want a cookie monster hp charm, pretty pretty pretty please please please?
and a new wallet, pretty pretty please please?
and a new pair of white canvas shoes, pretty please?
and a new nike/adidas/puma/billabong/roxy tote bag, can i?
and a new classy beautiful watch, may i?
and a new pair of white shorts, will i?

sore throat, running nose,
but
duty tml eh (:


will you, will you, will you be my mr sweet?
haha

to the the ones on the extreme right and left of the photo,

thanks for meeting the ugly girl in the middle of the photo today for tea. i really appreciate it. at least now things doesn seem that bad, coz i'll rmb our stupidness.
i cannot wait for your As to end so we can do more stupid things together.

Looi Siew Yuen and Elizabeth Chew, Priscilla Ho loves you both <3


希望你说的都是真心话

say hello to my new cookie monster ((:



sick~

DEAR, DONT SAD PLEASE!!! i don't know what happened, but my phone is 24/7 on,
online whenever i am home, i'll always be here to listen de!! CHEER UP DEAR!!!

不知不觉的
慢慢慢慢的
不能没有你
开始依赖你

harlows.



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cookie monster makes me (:

losing my ezlink card puts me in a huge shopping mood.
i want to go shopping, like nowwwwwww.



some things i don't want to say,
but,
i question genuinity.

i will give my everything
just to reverse everything
before i let everything go
just like the balloons

how i wish it was you


能不能不爱了 因为爱太痛了
我痛得快死了 却无法把你忘了
能不能不爱了 爱情它太痛了
我痛得快死了 却无法把爱割舍

to:
eli, yuen, fel, bridget, jia lin, meifen, li lin, changling, jonk, maimai, nana, louis, hayden, hong hui, kenny, joel, nic, timo, wee kee, joshua, yijie, jac, racheline, pinqi, zhengrui, kangyu, jes, mingjin, jeanette, haoning, isaac, fangyun, koktong, azmi e.t.c


GOOD LUCK FOR A's!!!!
it'll zoooommmmmm like a rocket and soon it'll be the last paper! hang in there!! jia you((((:

pris loves you all! :D

限时的遗忘 - 潘嘉丽


阴天的操场想你的肩膀
对着你的那个方向大声讲早安
往事像影片往后飞转
转了多少圈烦不烦
我想现在苏醒还不晚
也只能这样了我想

两人的冬天聊天等天亮
头发和永远原来都可以剪短
我也知道我可以生还
就算日子要天天算
但是我会很勇敢
会比你想的更勇敢

限时遗忘让我跑过悲伤
他们不是说忘了梦好简单
那些年的一切今天一刀两断
离开时要把眼泪擦干
我心里呼喊

两人的冬天聊天等天亮
头发和永远原来都可以剪短
我也知道我可以生还
就算日子要天天算
但是我会很勇敢
会比你想的更勇敢

限时遗忘让我跑过悲伤
他们不是说忘了梦好简单
那些年的一切今天一刀两断
看看世界是不是一样

限时遗忘不要让梦空转
要再次起飞就要更有胆量
站在起跑线上计算爱的能量
离开时要把眼泪擦干
我心里呼喊

一个人看这一片天空
它慢慢的从灰色变蓝
一个人在这一片操场
跑赢了孤单流的汗
我为胜利鼓掌奖牌是阳光

限时遗忘让我跑过悲伤
他们不是说忘了梦好简单
那些年的一切今天一刀两断
离开时要把眼泪擦干
我心里呼喊
我心里呼喊

learn

learn to let go
learn to accept
learn to better


not in the best moods
not in the worst moods
yet, my motivation, gone.


on a brighter side,
i'm collecting my bangle on mon (:


tml, a better day

if, and only if realities are as sweet as dreams are,
i wouldn wish for much
just someone, to listen.



thanks dear, sucker, loser

i'm buying this f21 bangle online! ((: if it doesn suit me, it'll become clara's sweet 16 birthday present :D
i told you, not being in the right mind makes a bigggg hole in my pocket. rawrs.

plus side, mummy's paying me to help lil brat with his studies. so i'll get 165bucks extra / month. which translates to more shopping and a good meal with dear every month >.<


the very fact that i haven't gotten over him is so very evident as soon as i saw the old folder of msges in the old phone.

the world doesn revolve around you and only you.

i take back what i said about wanting to stay in school for long periods of time.
home, is the best refuge.

only the 2nd week of school, and i'm ponning lectures & tutorials.
its raining freaking heavily now, and i just don't want to go to school to face the something, the-whatever-i'm-trying-to-evade-from. LOLS.

i shall make good use of time at home to sleep, eat, watch tv, onlineshopcomplete crs assignment, research on biophysics project.

TA~

lost, very

school's really boring and irritating with lousy, stupid teachers.
every passing hour is just a prelude to the ultimate dismissal.
seems like there's going to be lots of self-study and less online-time from now on.


on a side note,
i cnt wait to go to ee's hse for swimming, K and dinner later (:
and dinner with NN co. tml.


BYES~

for you and only you,


HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY,
desmond

love,

pris

thrust nothing, question everything - Mr Christopher Gill


confidence is key

being closed up gives pris a ferocious appetite.

BON APPETITE

on a side note: I freaking HATE PHYSICS.

612 星球


满园玫瑰 我以爲 找到我那一朵
认真爱了 却狠狠 刺伤我的双手
责备什麽人也没有用
玫瑰都红 难免看错

望着天空 爱是风 活在童话里头
小王子说 有些事 流浪过才会懂
原来每颗心都有个洞
找不到真爱 会一直寂寞

我但愿有一个人在等我
在属於我的612星球
好让我 忍着痛 也愿意往下走
不快乐至少要有梦
一定会有一个人在等我
无条件拥抱着我的所有
想遇见我还要翻越多少山丘
花别谢太快 请你等等我

擦干眼泪 一个人 漂流在这宇宙
小王子说 爱一定 开在某个角落
不想相爱的人那麽多
我会幸福吗 在什麽时候

我但愿有一个人在等我
在属於我的612星球
好让我 忍着痛 也愿意往下走
不快乐至少要有梦
一定会有一个人在等我
无条件拥抱着我的所有
想遇见我还要翻越多少山丘
花别谢太快 请你等等我


我但愿有一个人在等我
在属於我的612星球
好让我 忍着痛 也愿意往下走
不快乐至少要有梦
一定会有一个人在等我
无条件拥抱着我的所有
想遇见我还要翻越多少山丘
花别谢太快 请你等等我

yuen and eli got me hooked on this song. LOLS.

new blogskin. i like how the headings portray this certain message that i don't know how to explain. lols.
haven't been in the best of moods. from that to this, one whole bunch of crap seriously. why must everything come in the final few days of my holidays? not to mention the stupid visit to the doctor which saw me with a new batch of medicine lasting 3 months, and will cause weight gain. honestly, i should just die should i? i'm so fucking tired of popping pills already. i dont know, feeling damn bad since then. not to mention the absense of MOF dessert.

school's starting tml, and i cannot wait for it, honestly. it beats staying home and thinking about stupid things. although i'd miss the countless outings with dearest dear. sighs. but at least there's SMs in school, things will be better, won't they? idk. and i cnt wait to go back to duty. i miss doing duty.

and omg, i'm like alr thinking about my birthday and i want mummy and daddy to bring me to that 70++/person buffet at marina mandarin. we saw it on teevee the other day, and i was raving to mummy about the spread of sashimi available.
going out with dear brings out the foodie in me totally. i've got so many places i want to dine at. hehheh lols. until my rich prince comes to fulfill my wishes, i shall save up and go with dear (: and no nightmare, my prince will not become poor

talk about saving, i'm still waiting for my duty allowance man. where the hell issit? i need it to pay zhiyu and loser la. and also my shopping. shittass. i still feel like shopping my ass off, just a pity i dont have my atm card in my possession. or i think i'd spend like hundreds w/o knowing. and a sidenote, online shopping has made me lose interest in street shopping. lOLS.

what a random post.
BYES~

the past, just letting it go

[UPDATE 06:58pm]

sometimes i really hate it at home. i don't understand why they cannot just control their smelly temper, why they must quarrel over small matters. it just spoils the mood ok. damnit.
now i so cnt wait for tml to come. so i can get my ass to school and not face them so often. i'm so determined to stay out late, doing whatever, or just close myself in my room and do my work. honestly, this sucks. big time

[UPDATE 12:31am]

i swear i'm going broke. i just ordered 3 tops from online, tgt with the girls. man. someone save me!!

its 11/10/2008 today.
18 years ago, a girl who would be my dear was born.
and so, today is her 18th birthday!

so..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR!!

((((((((((((((((((:

dear has been my dear for 4 years and counting! yay!

let me recap 18 why-i-love-my-dears
here goes.

1. dear brings her dear for good food
2. dear goes shopping with her dear
3. dear listens to her dear talk nonsense
4. dear is sososo patient when explaining things to her stupid dear
5. dear won't ps her dear
6. dear goes out late, so her dear can sleep longer too
7. dear is her dear's fashion consultant
8. dear is not afraid to express her love for her dear
9. DEAR LOVES HER DEAR TOO
10. dear has her darling but still loves her dear
11. dear comforts her dear when her dear is sad
12. dear has imba comforting skills
13. dear needs her dear to nag her to study
14. dear teaches her dear manymany ways to escape mummy
15. dear treats her dear as her confidante
16. dear makes her dear keep her room clean
17. dear makes fun of hayden with her dear
18. DEAR IS DEAR, and thats why her dear LOVES DEAR!!

yay!! :DDDD


after cracking my brains for 18 why-i-love-my-dears, now i must crack my brain for a/many present(s) for my now-legal dear!!

but before i go,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR!!


pris loves dear tonnes!!


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♥, pris

dear came to my house yest, and she complained that my room is messy! =x
being bored now, i shall go TIDY my room!! yay! :D


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[UPDATE 1:20pm]


DONE WITH TIDYING MY ROOM!! haha. except inside my wardrobe. coz tidying inside would mean more clothes OUT, and no new clothes in, i must as well, leave it be, till i get more new clothes IN. LOLS.


super lazy to type, just look at before & after ok.

my study table

my bag table, i threw away like so many bags can, now i'm only left with 4 bags, i need new bags!

the top of my wardrobe, and dear, i will never give away my 1-eyed pikachu okay!

nownow,




the 2 bags of rubbish i threw away, not including bags

look at my 'collection' of 8 days, going to get daddy to sell to karang guni, then the moolah will be mine!!

yayyay!! DEAR HAPPY WITH ME LE MA!? haha
dear should come to my house more often, then she'll complain, then i'll pack my stuff eh.


shall go take my well-deserved lunch!

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[UPDATE 4:45pm]

mymy, i forgot to mention that i found $40 while i was cleaning my room!! 40bucks lehhs. i can like go another round of MOF-ing and shopping with dear lehhs!! hehheh. all 40bucks were found in those angpow i kept for dunno what reasons!! now i'm happy!! :DDDD

andand, i was trying the shorts i bought yesterday. its nicenicenice ok!! i love it lots!! pray that they will get the white one too! plsplspls? heh.
AND DEAR, the bf tee, tucked into the shorts is nicenice also!! heh! ilovedear!! (((:

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[UPDATE 11:12pm]

YUCKS!! mummy doesn want to go to MOF tml. eeeee de lor. daddy wants to go the alexandra to collect his camera and buy my battery. i'm thinking of getting a new lappie next year, when all the new poly kiddos come in, then got alot of discounts!! hehheh.

i think i 觉悟 already. after looking at his PM for so many days now, i think, its really time for me to let go of everything. i really dont want to be burdened by all these. rawrs. its emo time again, and i really feel like SPENDING ALOT!! i mean it, like those kind just take monet out of my wallet w/o thinking kind.

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i think i wont be seeing dear for a longlonglong time alr lor, yucks

MOF tml with parents! yayyay! thanks to dear's membership card!!
DEAR'S THE LOVE<3


BYESS

yummayes




i love dear lots. had a nicenice time with her.
bought black shorts and bf tee! its 2 things off my wishlist!!
want to get my vest and waist belt another time.



i don't like my ruined hair. why do hairdressers like to cut bangs and spoil my hair?! :(


DEAR is still da best! <3

Until I Get Over You - Christina Milian

Woke up today thinking of you
Another night that I made my way through
So many dreams still left in my mind
But they can never come true
I press rewind and remember when
I close my eyes and I'm with you again
But in the end I can still feel the pain, every time I hear your name

[Chorus]
The sun won't shine since you went away
Seems like the rain's falling every day
There's just one heart, where there once was two
But that's the way it's gotta be,
'til I get over you

[Verse 2]
Walked through the park, in the evening air
I heard a voice and I thought you were there
I run away but I just can't escape
Memories of you everywhere
They say that time will dry the tears
But true love burns for a thousand years
Give my tomorrows for one yesterday
Just to know that I could have you here

[Bridge]
When will this river of tears stop fallin'
Where can I run so I won't feel alone
Can't walk away when the pain keeps callin'
I've just gotta take it from here on my own
But it's so hard to let go


[[ i've been listening to this song on repeat, its like everything going on repeat. the feelings' all back. there's nothing much that i can do to salvage the past 4 months, can i? somehow i wish things will be different and reversed, but i know its not very possible. all i can do now, is hope that i can get over it, just be friends, good friends ]]

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i heart eyegang.

hello to dear tml!

oh man.
i'm damn jealous of the girls la.
they can choose the GEMs that they're interested in.
and poor me, has to go through current affairs! :((
sighs.


BUT
nvm, i'm a happy girl lols.
going out with dear again tml!
prolly getting my hair trimmed and eyebrows threaded!
more money spent.
i wanna go bugis also la!!
plans changed.
going with with eyegang in the evening ba.
wed with dear
thrus with HN.
friday with mummy. i'm gging to pull mummy to MOF. hehhehheh


shall go watch tv!
BYES

SMs
they claimed that they bent down for me! THANKS AH


Qi, Kim, Dear
i am fat face



good 2 days. filled with laughters, smiles and FOOD!
not forgetting a BIG hole in my wallet!

its because of you that i’m losing my mind. its because of you that i found the strength to carry on. its all because of you. that everything happens.

cravings

i'm craving for bubble tea and wasabi filet-o-fish from macs. heh.


[UPDATE @ 7:11pm]

yay! i finished sweeping the floor and mummy's buying back my macs for me!! weee :DDD

and while i wait for her, lets look at some items that i've set my eyes on online!



1. this pair of sandals!! nice lehhs, clara said its nice too. since the one i wanted didn have my size, i'm thinking of this pair, coz apparently i read that gojane stuff are not that trustable. MIC and all. heh. should i get it? they're gging to close the spree alr!! howhowhow!!?

2.

i like the embroidery details!! i think its prettaye!!

3.

i love the floral details lehhs. ((: but i'm supposed to stop buying dresses!!

4.

this skirt is nicenice de!! if i'm not wrong, its from DP. exex de!

5.A4-friendly!! nicenice de. vintage-y feel! heee

6. this agnes b long wallet!! although its non-auth, but i think its lovely!! i've been wanting a long wallet for a long time lehhs!!

thats that so far!! heee.

i'll be spending the whole of next friday with mummy. WHY!?
because..
my doc appt is messed up!! LOLS. my DI is like at 12.10pm, while my appt is like 7+pm!! you know how long that is!!! nvm, i'll pull mummy to bugis to shop!! hehhehheh!

i shall go be merry and wait for my dinner!

BYESS!

byee purple specs

like finally! (:

went down with daddymmummy to collect it, took abt less than 30min to learn.
for once, i wish i didn have such long lashes, coz its so much more difficult to put it in la. =x

and mummy naggednaggednagged, that i should only wear it during lab. rawrs. which is like 2 days/week, maybe i'll wear it for duty too! :D and lab days start at 8 pls! means i have to wake up even earlier can!! ohman.

but nvm la, at least i got my contacts after like asking for it for say almost 3 years, since sec 3. heh

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supposed to meet the squad at downtown to celebrate cy's b'day, but mummy's forbidding me to go out + i'll be gging out the rest of this week.

tml - NYAA
sat - meet up with SMs
sun - dear & kimkim

next wk - cut hair / eyebrow trimming with dear , meet / shop with Li Lin & eyegang

oh and i'm looking for cheap facials!? any recommendations?


BYES

new timetable

click to enlarge

i seriously don't like my new timetable ok. i think its so crap. lets see.
mondays are relatively ok, at least it starts at 10am the only day that starts late weekly, ends at 3pm
tuesdays start at 8am, and ends at 5pm. and it means that i cnt cont with tues duty. RAWRS. sadddddd! :( and on alternate tues, we have 4 hours break. absolutely insane!
wednesdays are rather similar to the previous sem, 8am - 12pm
thursdays start alternately at 8am/9am, and ends at 5. sians man.
fridays are alternatively 8am - 12pm / 11am-12pm. quite crap to go to school for 1 hr only la!

actually its quite ok, except for the long breaks and the fact that i have to change my duty day!! yucksyucksyucks!! i love tuesdays man. why do i have to change it.
that aside, sucker and i are thinking of changing duty days to mondays, hopefully there's ppl who can change lor



i roughly saw the timetable before i went to meet dear, and i was quite sad and complaining to loser. i dont want to change duty day!. LOLS
but i had a nice time with dear yay! i love dear!

13moredays

mummy's complaining that i do nothing at home, she'd rather me go waste my time at SGH, like during attachment. rawrs. and she claims that me, slacking at home, makes me sleep late (record of 4am), wake up late (record of 12pm), take afternoon naps and the cycle repeats. she nags that im gging to suffer from lag when sch reopens. so stupid.

and so, i quite packed my remaining holiday days, so i will be tired and sleep early, and wake up early. LOLS

today - TeoHeng with dear (:

wed - collect contacts with daddymummy (((:

thrus - CY's b'day celebration?

fri - NYAA thingy =/

sat - meet up with girls

sun - REST!

next wk: in no order

cut hair, trim eyebrows with dear ((:

cheap thrill at bugis / K with eyegang (prolly tues)

meet up with kimkim, qiqi, dear, Li Lin (prolly wkends)

pack my wardrobe

watch HOUSE BUNNY. LOLS

so much things to do~ LOLS. andand it means that i won't be able to do what i promised mummy to do, shucks.

andand it means that i'm going to spend like no tomorrow. i've alrd decided to spend the miserable 100bucks i saved during the last few weeks of the previous sem. and i'll start saving AGAIN when sch reopens. LOLS.
andand i'm just wondering when my duty allowance is coming in. 2 more duties then i've officially done 2 mths of duty, which is like 80bucks! its ALOT ok. then i can pay zhiyu & loser. rawrs.

and oh damnit, i really miss attachment i tell you. like MEGAmisses

i wanna go to SGH for ITP. lols. its like still damn far away though.

shall go prepare to meet dear.

regrets?

got this mail from yuen.

Read Slowly...

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?
Saying something and wishing you hadn't?, or
Saying nothing and wishing
you had?

I guess the most important things are the hardest things to
say.Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them.
If you do, they might
break your heart...if you don't, you might break theirs.


Have u ever
decided not 2 become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you
already had with that person?

Your heart decides whom it likes and whom
it doesn't.
You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it on its
own........when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.

Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that
other person was too afraid to let you ?

Too many of us stay walled up
because we are too afraid to care too much...for fear that the other person does
not care as much, or even at all.

Have you ever denied your feelings for
someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?

We tell
lies when we are afraid... afraid of what we
don't know, afraid of what
others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us.
But every time
we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger .

Life is all about
risks and it requires you to jump.

Don't be a person who has to look
back and wonder what they would have done, or could have had.

* What
would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye?

*What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be
there?

*What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you
never got to tell them how you felt? ( even if it is that you don't care
anymore)
*What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you
couldn't have them?
*What would you do if you never got the chance to say I
am friends with all of my family and they know I love them?*

People
live, but people die. I want to tell you that
you are a friend.

If
you died tomorrow (God Forbid)
you would be in my heart.
Would I be in
yours?

reading and agreeing with this is one matter.
but really doing it is another.

and me, for one, will never have the guts to do it.
and will regret, FOREVER.

hurts, but what can i do?
its not something that is as easily done than said.

sucks outright.

the good and old M.s

the good old memories, just sitting and chatting.
lovely day with dear, pz, cl. (:

i love dear muchos.
think i'm gging to meet her again tmltues de! (:
and i can collect my contacts too i think! ((:


lil brat's got me addicted to rubic's cube LOLS.
BYEs

如果能

笨的可以 - 郭采潔



听你开心说着 你的事情
我有一种莫名 心跳反应
夜深人静时候 突然想到你
没有原因 没有逻辑 谁能说明

总以为 我们是 地球的南北两极
直到 分开旅行 我才明白
有好多的话想说给你听

是我笨得可以 我们早就相遇
我说服我自己 这一切只是友情
是你让我相信 两颗心没有距离
我才发现 原来我爱着你

总是爱捉弄我 寻我开心
从来没有想过 会喜欢你
也许爱情就是 没什么道理
缘分来临 措手不及谁看得清

总以为 我们是 地球的南北两极
直到分开旅行 我才明白
有好多的话 想说给你听

是我笨的可以 我们早就相遇
我说服我自己 这一切只是友情
是你让我相信 两颗心没有距离
我才发现 原来我爱着你

是我笨的可以 没看穿你的心
还以为这只是 爱情无聊的恶作剧
是我笨的可以 我终于面对自己
勇敢证明 我是真的爱你
我是真的爱你

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if only.. rawrs.

auntie

# i dunno why i acted like mommyan auntie just now.
i suddenly remembered that candy said that she received the result slip alr, so i wore my ugly house clothes, hair messy, and went down to open the mailbox. this is something only mommyan auntie would do la. rawrs. hahaha.
but i still don't know how i fared in comparison in a cohort. sians.

# wp's finally working for me and i got another great stone off. new pw, ask me for it.

# i was watching that super matron show yest, and i'm so glad i've got mommy at home, at least my home will never be like those homes. oh wells~ daddy was laughing at me la family joke

# new playlist by 郭采潔. her songs are rather nice. another song, 笨的可以 is nice too. but its not in her album this time, should be in the OST of 无敌珊宝妹. (:

# i'm meeting CL and dear on sunday. i bet mommy's gna kill me for going out again. i'll try not to spend.

# oh and i applied for diploma plus, though i'm STILL not sure if i really want it. at least i can reject it at a later date, that is, if the application is SUCCESSFUL

# i'll have a new pair of sandals tml! (:

off to re-write my notes for duty.



[update]

oh ya, i'v been having this periodical pounding pain at the back of my head for a few days alr. damnit. its been spoiling my mood. and coz i was napping before duty, i screamed in the phone at mommy. i swear she's ultra pissed with me now ok, coz apparently she called my hp, and i thought it was the alarm, then somehow, i pressed the ans button or something, and my bro said he heard her hellohello many times. bloody hell. oh wells.


oh ya, runwayrhapsody updated the blogshop with 3 more new apparel sprees. rawrs. its going to get me tempted again. and loser's going to suffer! haha. from helping me transfer money. because for everything there's loser aye

oh ya, someone made my precious duty notes into kiam chye man. RAWRS. bloody hell

oh ya, i wanna make a trip down to kembangan to get my leggings. LOLs LOLS
i better go sleep alr.

NIGHTS~

MMM

watch mama mia with shan and candy today. the movie's not bad, feels more like a musical though. but its super funny :DDD
lunched at pizza hut. lots of laughter. (((:

looked for clara at far east after that, walked awhile then sent her home! (: she's helping me get a pair of sandals, coz she's got like 20% discount! ((:



BYE~

nigh time

strength through adversity

lots of thoughts going through my head.
going through so much ever since, has made me very worn out. sometimes i just feel like cooping myself at home, lesser interpersonal interaction would mean i need not to care and bother so much about things.
but yet, cooping myself would mean repeated thinking of those same old things.


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had a great afternoon laughing with eyegang today. there're like bigbig loves!! (:
bought my lip butter. *heartache*
stressed during 6pm-10pm. for the first time. rawrs. someone's like so fucked up. seriously. damn pissed man. luckily there was sucker thou!

meeting shan and co. tml for movie and lunch.
then to far east to be a nice cousin, and accompany clara home (:




high time i start all over again

birdie

yay!!! (((: i finally bought my clothes online! thanks zhiyu! thanks loser! :DDD


i like the colour and print of this tank top!! a lil vintage like that! wee~

i think the embroidery below is super cute can, and the top there is crochet somemore! (: and its on sale or something, if i'm not wrong, including shipping and everything, its only S$6.40. haha.we cnt order this :( the person said it was only for locals, as in taiwan ppl i think, to bid. no wonder it looked so cheap. rawrs



i dont really have blue tops, so i bought blue lor! (:

i think i'm like gging broke soon. i dunno why, i lost my lip gloss. damnit. now i need get a new one :( shall get the lip butter from body shop. dear says its good. (:

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i didn plan to wake up early today de ok. but this stupid bird had to wake me up! serious lor. coz my mum closed my window last night, then this morning, this really stupid bird flew through my living room window, into my house, and into my room. and since my window was closed, it couldn fly out right! then it started pecking at my window and making fucking lot of noise ok! damnit ok. but luckily it didn come peck him, or i'd kill it. so i woke up and wanted to open the window for it. before i could even do that, the damn bird flew out of my room and out of my house via the living room window!! like WTF. damnit lor. stupid bird!!
and nvm, that fucking bird even SHIT on my wall ok! wake me up nvm lor, still SHIT on my wall. go and die lor that bird. RAWRS!!
and i told mummy not to close my window next time, and i'm gging to lock the grilles so no more stupid bird can come into my house. spoiler bird.


i'm still thinking if i should meet dear, cl and mai tml. coz i cnt find anyone to take over my duty tml. and i'm scared i'll be late lor. and i still need to buy my gloss. :(
plus tml's duty is with traven again. and i can have break with sucker. LOLS. howhowhow?

howhowhow? take or not? diploma plus? i'm afraid i cnt cope, but its gging to be damn good if i cope well. i totally forgot abt my scholarship stuff la. HOW!?

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