♥PRIS (:

For one last time

2009-08-03T23:14:00.001+08:00

HELLLOOOO!! :D

the girls, namely evon and yingshan, said they haven't read my blog for so long..

So i opened it.

to say HELLLOOOO!! ((:

and i'm gone with the wind

When the character of a man is not clear to you, look at his friends.

2009-05-03T22:45:00.002+08:00

I may not be the best friend on earth.
But I do need a little respect, a little trust, a little everything.

I may not be the nicest friend on earth,
But I don't need to be treated how I'm treated.

I may not be the most open friend on earth,
But I do need to improve, with suggestions.

I may not be your best friend on earth,
But maybe, I'm not even qualified to be your friend.

It makes me wonder,
how fragile friendships can be.
how destructive friendships can be.
how fucked-up friendships can be.

Maybe this is why
I prefer solitude.
I prefer familiarity.
I prefer loneliness.

Time, has come again.
To be alone.

the end is near

2009-05-01T22:02:00.001+08:00

Some things are not meant for everyone.
Some words are not meant for your ears.

lets play a disappearing act

take me somewhere we can be alone

2009-04-26T11:21:00.003+08:00

[11.54pm]

chui. what a fucking day. screw everyone

Motivation is what gets you started. Habit is what keeps you going. -Jim Ryun

Desmond told me something which made me think and agree. He said: "but its going to be tiring after sometime". So i shall be a good girl and stop being a bitch to people i don't like. heh. try me! :DDD

on another hand, i need someone to enlighten me about the procedures to apply for my abcdefg. i really want to get it!!

on another another hand, i'm surprised at how come people, we call seniors, having gone through a minimum of 12 years of education, cannot tell the difference between an mc and family matters. either they've got no brains, or they're plain death. lalalah. though i think its retribution for my cursing and now i've got the terminator.. BOOOOs.

I'M GOING FOR DRIVING NOWWWWW.

BYEBYEBYEBYEBYE. i don't know why i'm so high. its not arthurliancs

back.. to death zone

2009-04-24T01:15:00.006+08:00

Our attitude toward life determines life's attitude towards us.
-Earl Nightingale

i love life, but why doesn life love me?

i have no idea what the fuss is about. it is just one miserable day and i have to go through the turmoil of having to see a teacher. i ~~fucking~~ hate to see teachers for things. i may not have been fiercely hardworking and loyal, but at least i am regular and i do whatever i have to do, don't i?
how i wish august '09 will come quick and i'll be freed. screw you cca.

on another note, the lesson later will end the first week of school. honestly, give me a choice and i'd choose to flee back to med tech, to the world of 2B22. Class fun or Interest. i'd choose the latter in this situation. things are just weird when there's only 3 of us instead of 6. no more shan. no more evon. no more lynette. no more buddy. no more seow. no more kiddo. never has lessons felt so grossed out before. no one puts in the effort, so why should i? wrong concept but this world is this selfish. so, hate it all you want, because i hate it too. screwed

all i want is for this sem to end fast. lightning fast.

BYEEE

2009-04-19T14:55:00.003+08:00

livejournal is being a bitch. i cannot go to my lovely blogshops so i can get something for clara!!
BOO

i got a very rude shock when i saw the modules i'll be suffering through, starting tml.
i think i'm going to dread school.
BOOOs.

the only consolation is that my sillyeli promised to meet me once a week for dinner on tues/thrus.
pray this sem passes like lightning so sem 2 will come! i'm looking forward to sem 2!! ((:

tata.
going to bathe and go for lunch/dinner with daddy and bro at the airport before duty

Hearts will break - yet brokenly, live on.

2009-04-18T01:13:00.002+08:00

HAPPY xx BIRTHDAY NIGHTMARE!! (:
just be happy boppy sheep. hee.

forgive and forget, it shall be.
the world will be better without you though.

because i know that if i love you,
i have to let you go.

-17 again

you go forth and back and forth and back

2009-04-16T22:29:00.002+08:00

i'm really tired of all those stupid shit.
you know, if you don't plan to involve yourself constructively, then keep your sarcastic crap shit to yourself please and thank you. i don't need you to say stupid things which is freaking obvious.

sometimes, i just wonder why i'm in this shit. like seriously. i hate this kind of things, but i somehow have to get myself into this kind of shit time and time again.

i'm somehow quite glad school is reopening soon.

and i really love my buddies!

if nothing, everything

2009-04-14T22:43:00.000+08:00

sometimes fate really makes fun of you.

why, of all times, that day

because you are my moonlight

2009-04-11T15:41:00.007+08:00

11.45pm

pris is a happy girl today. i had millions of fun with the buddies today!! (:
met them at expo, went to find mummy to get her to buy my younghearts and this lovely top. then to subway for pre-dinner and bridge. trained off to tampines 1 (again) for dinner at secret recipe! THANKS SATHISH FOR THE TREAT!! and i swear the cheesecake at secret recipe is the bbomb!! we ordered 2 pieces lo!! hahahha. love eating with them. walked around tampines 1 (again), went to NET(: and the guys got fcuking awesome tees!! walked around and went back to NET(: again, to get a tee for myself THANKS SATHISH AGAIN!! (((: roamed around tampines mall, arcade then home.

I forsee myself hanging around tampines 1 very often because its my sillyeli's territory, i love cheesecake, and someone shuai is there in some shop. HAHAHA.

and really, I LOVE MY BUDDIES!! seow, sathish, cx!! they nv fail to make every outing memorable and happy!! omgosh!! THANKS SO MUCH FOR THE FUNNN!! (((:

now i shall carry my high-ness to tml, flea market with sillyeli, then to mdc!!
WOOOOOOOO~

!!!!!

pris is super excited!!

because its going to rain, and i won't need to go jogging with buddies. hahaha. but i wanna meet them lehhs.

because tml, I WILL BE GGING TO MDC!! to watch CSS3 LIVE! :DDDD woohoo~
thanks evon best partner!! <3>

and i fall head over heels over you again

2009-04-07T22:58:00.003+08:00

i'm sort of screwed for the finger prick assessment. couldn't squeeze any blood out of sathish. BOO.

but who cares, i had fun today.
had subway lunch and raced daytona before going for the assessment.
followed by walking around JP and train-bouncing to Joo Koon to pass time.

came home with black bangle, hair clip, lip gloss.
i needa start saving. i still have so many wants. thatcottonontopmaybellinesmudgeproofeyelinerflatsleatherbagclutch
moreandmoreclothes. boohoo. can someone sponsor me?
not to mention the many outings coming up.

thrus: Tampines One with seow and sathish + dinner with makan gang
friday: back to esplanade + probable drinking with alec and co.
sunday: shopping with silly eli
n. tues: K with haoning
n. thrus: 22's day out
i still need to arrange a day to treat dearest dear, coz i have not met her since holidays started and i owe her a treat. and also kimkim's birthday outing.

moneymoneyfallfromthesky.

ok, i officially need more books to occupy me.

BYEBYE

it's surprising how things come and go

2009-04-06T14:52:00.005+08:00

i cleaned my room.
i painted my toenails a midnight blue.
i changed my blogskin.

i miss you.
i miss internship.
i miss esplanade.

i want time.
i want heels.
i want that lace dress.
i want waterproof eyeliner.
i want leather bag.
i want shopping.
i want money.
i want internship.
i want a pass for the assessment.

time flies.
2 weeks. not long enough to enjoy to the max.
2 weeks. not short enough to forge new bonds.
2 weeks. just 2 weeks. nice classmates please.

can someone tell me.
if i should carry on and apply for usher at the esplanade?

time to fly~

2009-03-31T00:24:00.002+08:00

不说并不代表不介意

2009-03-27T11:15:00.000+08:00

HAPPY SWEET 18, EVON!! (:

2009-03-24T20:50:00.003+08:00

I swear that having DXO beside my attachment place is super TEMPTING!!!
clubclubclub! but i seriously overspent alr and my afternoon shift doesn fall on sat! arghs.

i need to buy a facial wash that includes makeup remover. because i am so lazy to remove my makeup, so i practically slap facial wash over my whole face and wash it.
ANY ONE WANTS TO SPONSOR!!?

LOLS.
yayness for 2 off-days!! (:
yayness for ~~stupidarthurlian~~driving tml!! ((:

reminder to myself: bring makeup to attachment!!

BYEEEEEEEES

2009-03-19T00:18:00.003+08:00

i should have known better and not set goals so high.
because when i fall, it wouldn hurt as much.

i am not very disappointed, but disappointed.
but life has to move on.
i will, improve along the way.

~~and gosh, i need ~~stupid~~arthurlian to talk stupid now.~~
maybe one day, i'll grow stronger!

thanks hottie (:
thanks desmond =D

2009-03-13T22:34:00.003+08:00

好想，好想

2009-03-10T19:32:00.002+08:00

work, though tiring, is providing an escape from reality.

did i mention that i really love sathish, seow and cx! they can just make my day ((:
not forgetting dear, and the usual people.

i need somemore time
shopping will do good

2009-03-08T00:44:00.003+08:00

regrets are present in the world
especially in my world.

everytime i find a way to convince myself that whatever i am doing is right
everytime things will happen that will make me regret deeply.

and today, the whole bubble i've created, burst.
and today, i am once again, lost
and today, i need once again, direction.

the future, uncertain

2009-03-08T00:44:00.000+08:00

my dream world came crushing down.
idk where i should go to from now.
i need someone to give me a direction.

the future, uncertain

2009-03-05T00:12:00.001+08:00

mentally tired.
give me a break.

till some day-

2009-03-02T19:28:00.000+08:00

BLASTING OFF!! (:

2009-02-28T16:08:00.000+08:00

i will definately miss them.

2009-02-27T00:01:00.002+08:00

freedom

the smell of freedom,
ever so sweet.

yet the hidden conditions behind it,
spoils everything.

to give it up or not?

#250

2009-02-25T23:02:00.002+08:00

the difficulty in picking it up

yes, i know i've been grumbling about the stupid attachment
yes, i know i've been saying that the interview is so last minute
yes, i know i've been saying i've got chalet on that day

BUT

no, i did not say that i won't be going for the interview
no, i did not say that the chalet is all i want to go for
no, i did not say that i want to quarrel to you.

like HELLO, its my f*cking scholarship at stake. as much as i want to let it go, i know i cannot afford to. because the f*cking school fees are f*cking high and i know that no matter what, to hold on to that f*cking scholarship is part of my duty to repay my sins of not studying hard enough in tj. i did not f*cking say anything about not lettting go, neither did i raise my voice, so stop f*cking saying that i don't deserve any concern just because you f*cking think that you are the only f*cking facing stress at work, and that i only know how to use the internet like no f*cking business. and if you think so, then i can f*cking tell you that you f*cking undermine me, because i am no f*cking brainless person, because i know alot of things and there are alot of f*cking things i want to say, but i don't because i know you are alr f*cking stressed. so just leave me alone and stop venting your f*cking anger on me, because i just want to do my own things, so would you please leave me alone and f*cking stop trying to read my mind because you always fail. and i dont really need your pity or reward anymore. because i know now, whatever i am doing, i am doing only for myself and no f*cking other, even you. because now i know, i can only depend on myself.

because the world is a biased place.
and i am not strong enough

2009-02-24T22:35:00.002+08:00

dreams gone with the wind.

sometimes, i feel like quitting.
not because i dont like the money
its just not my kind of life
i don't like to be informed of things last minute, which spoils my holidays
i don't like to have to do things because there are conditions attached to them
i just want to be a good, mugging student during the term, and a free person during the holidays.

damn you scholarship.

if i will wait, would you still stand by me

2009-02-23T23:18:00.003+08:00

3 MORE DAYS TO END OF PAPER!!

2 MORE DAYS TO STUDY!!

1 MORE PAPER!!

woohooo~ :DDDDD

2009-02-21T23:28:00.002+08:00

keep mugging on please, pris.

maybe a sweet escapade would do good aye

march will you come quick

2009-02-20T20:56:00.006+08:00

if only i could be as sweet as that sweet.

screwed big time

I NEED A SHOPPING SPREE!!! like super big time!!

those kind where i use my NETs card like nobody's business you know.

f*ck those thoughts where my mom will kill me. f*ck those thoughts about spending my precious savings. JUST GET ME SOMEONE TO GO WITH ME!! arghs. not like online shop browsing is helping much, coz mostly, my nosey mom is peeping and giving stupid comments. wth.

its not that i have the money, or need more clothes. its more of a WANT!! to release those f*cking emotions inside me. those f*cking bottled up emotions which i have not been able to express apart from the f*cking thoughts that i haven't had the mood to study, and i really haven't been studying and i'm so f*cking screwed for those f*cking tests. which will result in no university in the right mind will accept me after i get my diploma, which will be another f*cking failure listed under my name in the family, and no one will trust me to do well anymore because i just f*cking disappoint everyone everytime.

and its not only f*cking academics. there's so much f*cking more inside me, but its so f*cking difficult to express that i cannot be bothered to tell anyone about it. not like everything is so similar to those times back. and its not my f*cking fault that im feeling this way if some f*cking people could be more considerate and all. arghs. sometimes i do wonder why i am so f*cking nice to some people when they don't deserve it. i just feel that i am a f*cking fake person. maybe i should be a mean person and stop showing concern, and being nice to those f*cking people, because i am damn tired of being nice.

am so f*cking irritated such that i havent been going anywhere except school for the past week. i dont even go to the lib to study coz the only person to suffer is sucker coz i will just f*cking blow up at him, not like he deserves it. damnit.

WHAT A F*CKING WORLD!

F*CK YOU PRIS!!

ok bye

2009-02-15T23:04:00.005+08:00

IM DEPRESSED.

#1 ididnstudyforthewholeweekendsandstsarecomingliketuesday
andimsodeadcozimsonotpreparedforit
andididnevendowellforchemca2.
godblessme.

#2 thoseuniadmissionscoresaresofreakinghigh
anditfeelslikeihavenilchanceofgettingintoanysporeuni
anditslikeoverseasuniaredamnbloodyexpensiveanditsnotlikeihavethemoolah.

#3 ithinkmydreamtogetintoamedicalschoolisgonelikethewind.

#4 ithinkiamatotalfailureinlife.
ifailinbeingasmartconscientiousstudent.
ifailinbeingafilialdaughter.
ifailinbeingagoodsister.
ifailinbeingagoodfriend.

#5 mywholelifeisdepressing
cozicannotevenachievesomethingihavewaitedforayearplustodo.

i shall now go look into the mirror and reflect on what i failure i have been. if only someone will give me a slap and ask me to wake up if not i'll never ever succeed in life, and i'll be deemed as the failure of the whole HO family.

and oh, i hate how you are biased and a great liar and all. i dont know why in the first place i could be so nice and close. how fake can i be?

your personal nick is really really nice. if only you knew what im referring to

enjoy~

2009-02-14T00:44:00.002+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!!

~ a kiss for all you singletons out there!!

2009-02-11T23:08:00.002+08:00

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Pris
2. Girl
3. 嘉玲

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. PRIS
2. JIALING
3. liing'x

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF
1. my right eye
2. my left eye
3. my fingernails

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON’T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF
1. fats everywhere
2. hair everywhere
3. pimples everywhere

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE
1. Chinese
2. I own the Hainanese Chicken Rice Kingdoms. lol
3. the squatting toilets at home

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU
1. insects
2. the sound of metal on metal
3. death

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS
1. handphone
2. sleep
3. clothes

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING NOW
1. 2d class tee
2. Fbts
3. Specs

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS (RIGHT NOW)
1. 甜蜜约定- 183club
2. 深呼吸 - 宇恒
3. 缺席 - 黄靖伦

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE, IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER
1. i love someone from my past and present
2. i used to have hair till my butt
3. i wish i could be a lesbian

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU
1. HIS smile
2. HIS height
3. the way he walks

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES
1. sleep
2. shopping
3. wandering online

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW
1. MAHJONG!
2. shop like mad, i wldn mind thailand with eli
3. convince myself to study

THREE CAREERS YOU’RE CONSIDERING/YOU’VE CONSIDERED
1. cardiologist
2. musician
3. nurse

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION
1. Japan
2. Paris
3. Taiwan

THREE NAMES YOU LIKE
1. Zavier
2. Yvonne
3. Desmond

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
1. Be rich
2. Pray that no one will cry for me
3. Grow old

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL
1. I shop
2. I love dresses
3. I cry easilt

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY
1. Sit worse like a man
2. Spew vulgarities
3. I prefer hanging out with guys

THREE PEOPLE THAT YOU WOULD LIKE TO SEE TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW
1. Li Lin
2. Kimberly
3. Changling!

如果是就好了

2009-02-10T13:06:00.003+08:00

thank goodness for THIS.
my TWT GEMs CA2 topic is finally approved.

~~off for CRS CA3 before i get back and finish the !^#%#%&* essay.~~

就抱着你，绝不放手
让幸福只为你停留
你是我的天使，我的唯一
我的绝无仅有

2009-02-09T22:16:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 16TH TO MY 'LIL BRAT!! ((((:
take very good care of your black abangs! ((:

*******************************************

everything needs a pushing force.
and because you are my pushing force
and you asked me to do
i will to my best ability(:

C is for COOKIE

2009-02-08T00:52:00.004+08:00

i ♥ my cookie monster keychain! ((: bigbig thanks to gugu! :D

went for 元宵 dinner just now.
and my cousins are still major camwhorers. hahaha.

i didn know that i could miss my eldest cousin so much

# that apart, i seriously think i am a crybaby and whatsoever. cried and realised i cried for nothing. and in the first place, i shouldn have cried. LOLS.

# there's A&P. biophysics test on monday and i have done nothing. GG. yayyayyay.

till then,
BYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYE

imma pH 1

2009-02-06T08:23:00.004+08:00

i feel like scalding and hurting people with super acidic words now.
because i cannot understand how some people just harp over past things, and not think about how much shit those stupid words can bring.
DAMN YOU PEOPLE!!

mahjong later.
tyvm

i think i'll cry the whole night to sleep.
tyvm

2009-02-04T21:13:00.003+08:00

feeling as if i'm drowning in the huge amount of things to mug.
and randomly,
i am ~~fucking~~super missing Looi Siew Yuen, Elizabeth Chew, Peh Li Lin and Mah Haoning.

shitass.
and the worst thing is i'm not going to meet them till march.
damn the Sem Tests!! :((
everyday its school (lessons) -> library (mug) -> home (rest, mug).
and even now, i am beginning to skip lessons coz lessons feel meaningless alr.
arghs. i wasn even so mugger-ish back in jc.
damn the tests!! :(((

howhowhow?
告诉自己一个人多好
arghs

its 9:53PM now.
and i decided that i cannot concentrate any longer.
stupid random unknown things running in my head.
i'm gging to bed.
dumb

2009-02-03T23:16:00.002+08:00

die man. my hands are still itching for mahjong after playing at laoshi's hse. arghs.

ANYONE GAME FOR A GAME on VALENTINES' DAY!? with me and eli!? hahaha. we loves are gonna spread the love! LOLS.

i seriously need to start mugging,

till then,

YUEN & ELI, PRIS LOVES YOU MANY!! :D *cheers*

gossip girl 2

2009-02-02T21:22:00.001+08:00

别再为他流泪 - 梁静如

你走了太久一定很累
他错了不该你来面对
离开他就好就算了心情很干脆

他其实没有那么绝对
远一点你就看出真伪
离开他不等于你的世界会崩溃
转个弯你还能飞

就别再为他流泪
别再让他操控你的伤悲
就算有一点愚昧一点点后悔
也不要太狼狈
他不值得你的泪
把那遗憾留在大雨的街
你曾在迷失的旅途中盲目追
以后为自己醉

每段感情都非常珍贵
他的好你就放在心扉
记得有个人曾让你那样的心醉

你笑了照亮夜幕的黑
什么梦都不比你的美
多少年以后想起他还有些体会
那些你已无所谓

就别再为他流泪
别再让他操控你的伤悲
就算有一点愚昧一点点后悔
也不要太狼狈
他不值得你的泪
把那遗憾留在大雨的街
你曾在迷失的旅途中盲目追
以后为自己醉

就别再为他流泪
别再让他操控你的伤悲
就算有一点愚昧一点点后悔
也不要太狼狈
他不值得你的泪
把那遗憾留在大雨的街
你曾在迷失的旅途中盲目追
以后管他是谁

for the special girl again.
我知道你一定会坚强
开心哦！！ (:

gossip girl

2009-02-02T00:14:00.003+08:00

为了一个人而伤心
为了一个人而哭泣
是否问过自己是不是想太多
是否问过自己是不是值得的

一切想清楚了
一切相通了
就要再开心的
就要再幸福的
做回最真实的你
因为最真实的你
才是最迷人的
才是我们认识的你

记得，
要开心
要快乐
要幸福
要笑！！

因为我们一直在你身边
为了爱撑到最后！

specially for my gossip girl(:

if i had the day my way

2009-01-31T21:38:00.004+08:00

i dreamt that i had a bigbig bouquet of colourful roses, a bigbig box of guylian chocolates, a bigbig bunch of cookie monster and heart-shaped ballons, and fireworks.

FOR VALENTINES DAY.

if only it'll happen.

i just want one stalk of light pink rose and a cookie monster balloon. hahaha.

all i know is that i'm meeting my love for that day((:

ooh, i bought my first online purchase with approval from mummy.

wellwellwell,

i'm gging to bai nian at gao laoshi's hse tml!

and driving.

BYEEE

2009-01-29T23:06:00.003+08:00

this is love blogging for love.

love can't wait to see love on sunday and we can all sing sing sing and laugh laugh laugh. love can still remember last year's cny when we went to gao laoshi house, we ate this yummy chicken and ice kachang thing (: will love bring love there again? love loves love<3 omgg is so lovey dovey haha. love is blogging rubbish cos loves are rubbish too. heh.

happy CNY!

2009-01-27T00:14:00.001+08:00

新年快乐！！

loads of love from
pris
in the toilet!

xoxo=D

heyyohey

2009-01-24T22:30:00.004+08:00

PASSED!

next up would be FTT on 28/2.

THANKS DEAR FOR THE DAY!! ((((((: pretty manicure and pedicure

CONGRATS CHANGLING!!

looking forward to next driving lesson.

not looking forward to cny.

xoxo =D

blabberdy

2009-01-22T23:20:00.003+08:00

AHHHHH.
BTT TML!!
say with me: PRIS WILL PASS!! ((((:

idk why the shit i am feeling so scared. must be all the pressure mummy and bro has been giving me.
BUT
i'm looking forward to after that. shopping with mummy for my everlast pumps, then meeting dear on saturday, dinner with 2D on saturday, CNY with new clothes, then 22's wear-cny-clothes day!!

and i do love hanging out with SMs and the east-side guys muchos. LOLs
did i mention i ponned GEMs to go shopping with evon, shan & lyn yest, and ended up buying yet another pair of black shorts. but its so comfy, sat i want to get the white one if possible! hahaha.
and me and shan shopped tampines with seow!! say what!? guys can be good shopping companions.

MARKETING WITH MUMMY TML!!

woohoo~

the old days gone

2009-01-20T20:09:00.006+08:00

i was randomly looking through my phone folders and found the video of fdc '07.
my first feeling after looking at it after so long still pride. and then came the nostalgia that made me want to cry.

i really miss days training under the sun. i really miss the discipline. i really miss the times we slack in the rc room. i really miss the time we laugh and scold the juniors. i really miss the time we play, study, cry, do report together. i really miss the time we went through sour, sweet, bitter, spicy times (酸甜苦辣）together.

i miss the juniors. i miss the teachers (including mr tan). i miss the laughters we share with them all. i miss the tough times we went through as a unit. i miss the disciplined them.

to think of it, after passing out from the unit for so long, i still long to go back. familiarise once again with the juniors, praise them, teach them, be proud of them. but how often can i go? even if i go, will i be welcomed? afterall, we'll old people to them, we're not valuable. why must this even happen. why must us, seniors be condemned? just because we dont return regularly? just because we seem to be of no more use? idk. sometimes i really feel like giving up, telling myself that its no longer my problem, but everytime i think of the hard times my small squad went through to bring the unit up, it hurts to feel invaluable now. =x

i finally understand why yt & cy told me not to get too attached.

i finally understand alot.

because we're not valuable to the unit anymore.

its time to say goodbye to juniors, to fdc trgs, to everything that used to be tkrcy. its a foreign land now.

BUT, my squad, 0306, will always be bonded.

more outings plsss. <3

time to get my work down.

BYESSSS

xoxo =D

i'm so pro i can cause a jam

2009-01-18T15:48:00.005+08:00

i think i am a super retard.
super slow human reaction and message-processing.

first driving lesson today, and i think the instructor was sian-ed with me.
coz i don't understand the meaning of don't step the brake too hard and slowly and gradually step/release the accelerator/clutch pedal and watch the line.
i think he was like wanting to fall asleep but cannot coz he's jeopardising his own life. hahaha.

DON'T LAUGH AT ME OK!!
next time your first driving lesson like that also then i'll laugh. hahaha.
i shall aim to improve my skills lor.
april pass lehhs~

*update*
my brother will be darn proud of me man.
i was napping when the !#&%$ neighbours came home, as usual noisy.
i woke up, closed my eyes, walked to the door, opened my eyes and stared at the poor one who was looking into MY HOUSE, slammed the door in their face and cursed them.
NBJB KNN.

GOD BLESS.
i'm onto eclipse!

xoxo =D

look out for a kiddo

2009-01-17T22:08:00.009+08:00

i am still a child at heart and me loves playgrounds.

i think the traffic police shouldn't let me drive on the roads lor.
i'm super prone to traffic violence. LOLS
i flashed my middle finger at this driver who horned at my dad.
HAHA. rawrs.

man. tml got driving. not looking forward to it ok.
but i still want to drivvvveeeee. =D

oh and my graffiti tank i ordered online longlong ago came today!!
THANK YOU ZHIYU!!!
you'll get a present from me too ya!

I WANT TO WATCH GREY'S ANATOMY!!!?
but im super lazy to dl from online lehhs.
ANYONE HAS THE DVD!?

am still waiting for after cny.
=D and i want ladies night with yueennnnnny and eeeeeeeeli.

只要告诉自己i believe
一定会有结果
xoxo =D

2009-01-17T00:07:00.002+08:00

am so waiting for after cny please.
thank you.

can someone tell me where to find confidence?

你的眼神，充满魅力，带走我的心跳
xoxo =D

2009-01-15T22:53:00.005+08:00

i am looking for the girl in the photo with me.

i need her to go shopping with me so i can buy more nicenice clothes.

i need to tell her manymany things.

i miss her laaaaa.

亲爱的，你在哪里？

on another note,

i skipped school today, because:

1. i forgot that there's biophysics tutorial and didn feel like gging coz i still havent printed my notes

2. my nose was running, but my eyes were super dry

3. i didn feel like seeing the crybaby

4. i wanted to drink bbt right at that moment

5. i wanted to read twilight 2- new moon

LOLS.

i ended up reading, then sleeping, then meeting Li Lin, Kim, Hay at bugis for some shopping and catching up.

so i spent again, bought the tees for me and love, smiley necklace and a white tube for the kimono.

nehneh. i used my atm card for the first time. i'm a nooby, and i feel guilty for spending so much.

but i still want to shop with my 亲爱的. she knows me besttt.

oh and,

头没那么大，就别戴那么大的帽子
too bad that the more you do, the more you err.

so STOP.

i miss my xoxo =D

alrights. i shouldn pon school tml, so i should go and sleep

and i've got duty tml.

NIGHTS ALL

2009-01-13T20:51:00.005+08:00

mee ish bery young lehhs. budd me realli bery long neber hear peopole shay dhis oledi.

mee wan tuu cormprain tuu cheecher mee fliends booli meee.
mee fliends
boolii meee, deyy dun let moii orhorh, deyy don wan tork tuu meee. mee shick
worhhs, deyy don let moii rweest lorhhs.
deyy boolii mee, make moii kry. mee
wan tuu cormprain tuu cheecher. :(

aiyooos, de meimei sho saddd ahh. mee shay shorryshorry tuu the meimei laa. me bad neber let her orhorh wen shee tirredd and me ish even moree tiredd dan her, me bad me neber tork tuu herr, mee scarred hearring got porbrem kannot lhisten tuu herr. me badd dunno shee shick lehhs, me shorry la meimei. meimei dunch kryyy larhhs.

WTF!! i had a difficult typing like a stupid childish girl lor.
WTF!! angry la. here i go.

am i supposed to you that you're coughing for 9-10 days!? wa, you cough the whole world know issit. even if you cough the whole world know, am i supposed to count the days you've been coughing. sorry lehhs, i'm not so bo liao to count lor. i got better things to do like what im doing now!!
and omg, i didn know rest would include coming online and telling the whole world you are sick lehhs, and complain so much.
and in my years in rc, i've nv heard that INSUFFICIENT REST CAUSES ASTHMA lehhs. checks online also dont show this lor.. or are you allergic to your own cough huh? wtf. and even if you get an asthma attack, no worries la plssss, i will call 995 for you ok, and pass you a paper bag la.
and for god's sake, you lack rest isn my problem ok. you dont know how to plan your own time and lack rest time, its not my bloody problem ok. and how many maybe's will come true huh!? and plsss, you'll get giddy when you stand up and down, then DON'T la. why on earth would you need to do that ok!!

and damn you ok. NO ONE SAID YOU CANNOT REST! YOU AT LEAST FINISH YOUR WORK PROPERLY. GET THE GIST damn, ITS PROPERLY. NOT INCOHERENT, GRAMMATICALLY SUPER INCORRECT SENTENCES WHICH MAKE NO SENSE AT ALL. YOU CALL YOURSELF AN O LEVEL GRAD, MAYBE YOU NEED TO GO BACK TO SEC SCH, oh no, MAYBE PRI SCH!! AND YOU RUSH!? THEN WHY DIDN YOU DO IT EARLIER!? USE MEDICATION AS AN EXCUSE. SO WHAT!? SIDE EFFECTS OF MEDICATION TAKES TIME TO TAKE EFFECT, SO WHAT, THE MEDICINE MAKE YOUR BRAIN FUNCTION LESS PROPERLY IS IT!?

RIGHT TO FIGHT FOR YOUR REST TIME!? THEN WHAT ABOUT OUR REST TIME!? YOU SICK AND NEED REST! THEN WE NEED TO HELP PICK YOUR SHIT AND DONT NEED REST LA!! USE UR SMELLY PEA BRAIN LA. YOU DONT TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF OUR FAULT IS IT!? YOU SICK OUR FAULT IS IT!? YOU DO STUPID SHIT WORK ALSO OUR FAULT!?

OH, MAYBE YOU DONT HAVE A BRAIN AND YOU USE YOUR BUTT TO THINK. SO USE YOUR BUTT TO THINK BEFORE YOU WRITE ANYTHING OK! DONT WRITE AND TALK STUPID THINGS, BECAUSE YOU ARE MESSING WITH THE WRONG PEOPLE!!!

OH AND PLEASE DO NOT TRY TO ACT POOR THING AND CRY AND WANT TO COMPLAIN TO TEACHER. BECAUSE THAT IS SO PRIMARY SCHOOL, maybe even kindergarden, AND IT ONLY SHOWS THAT YOU ARE WEAK!! UNDERSTAND!? WEAK CHILDISH ASS.

woah. you think only you can type in caps huh. you are the only one who can complain is it!?
LOSER

woohooooo, whywhy, sometimes childish ppl makes me (:
and oh, im so pleased i refrained from using vulgarities man.

2009-01-11T22:53:00.002+08:00

for today and tml, i wish that the day will have more than 24 hrs.
i need loads of time for me to complete the freaking projects. to hell with projects man.

anws, GOOD LUCK to lammie weifang, booooo qingxia, and all my beloved juniors who're taking their O lvl results tml!!
seems like yesterday that i took mine. the swensons lunch with makan, the bus 16 ride, the butt-hurting wait in the hall, the shock, the smiles, the calls. everything seems so near yet far.

I'M OLDDDDD~

NIGHTS ALL

yeah, i am superman

2009-01-10T00:13:00.002+08:00

all motivations welcomed. presents, money, kisses. LOLS

i'm just super happy about the full marks!! muahaha. for once, i feel like i didn let mrs chee and miss li down. woohoo. parents are quite satisfied and daddy says i can get something, i want a new phone pretty please? nehneh.

me met with my rubbish love today for SHOPPING!! *hohoho and we treated ourselves to sakae buffet.
bought white shorts, like finally, and black shorts. hahaha. i'm more or less done for CNY. just need more stuff to wear to school, like those pretty teeshirts haha. and the cutteeee smiley face necklace at DIVA. i'm broke but maybe i'll get those tees and the necklace on sunday after i meet the guys for CRS.

BYEEEEES

2009-01-06T22:49:00.003+08:00

pris is a happy girl today.

easy pracs, tuna pufff, yam bao, porno discussions with 3 guys, ajisen with candy & shan, shopping, crapping, talks about random stuff.
its enough to make the day really pleasant!! (((:

and it feels real good to be able to talk about him freely

duty tml.
NIGHTS

2009-01-04T15:38:00.001+08:00

i swear im gging to kill my dad when he comes home later.
he finished the chocs that eli gave me for x'mas. fat ass damnit.

i hate my haircut again. f*** everything la

2009-01-01T22:02:00.003+08:00

i think i am a miser.
only dear can make me part with my moolahh.
so i need dear to pei me go shopping de.
dear, i want more shopping. lalalah

i want to read the whole series of twilight.
but i don't have the books.
but i dont have the time to read.
mummy wants me to studystudystudy, both school stuff, and driving.
mugmugmugmugmug

BYEEEES.

2008-12-31T22:04:00.004+08:00

END OF 2008!!

And on the last day of 2008, pris sang with her bestest K buddies, bought her waist belt, and

REGISTERED FOR DRIVING!!!

1st prac lesson - 16 Jan
BTT - 23 Jan

Overall aim: PASS DRIVING BY MID-APRIL.

..................................................................................................

nothing to recap for 2008.
wasn really a pleasant year, with alot of conflicts, tears, lies, and many more.
but at least i still had the old friends to support me through.

really hope 2009 will be a muchmuchmuch better year.

Some aims for 2009:
1. PASS DRIVING BY APRIL!!
2. GPA 3.7 & get into cardio tech
3. exercise more and lose xx kg
4. be nicer to everyone, trust more, stop being so easily irritated
5. save 8k

i shall go indulge myself in a quiet countdown with oranges. haha

2008-12-30T22:18:00.003+08:00

i was sososo tired yesterday that i stoned through the whole day, hugging the bigbig present SMs gave me. and i stoned through the 4b gathering.
continue to stone today.

no more stoning tml, coz imma going to register for driving, and go k with haoning, lilin and ambroseeeeeeee. hahah

i dont like you liar

2008-12-28T00:00:00.004+08:00

18! finally.

*************************************************

special thanks to the manymany who wished me happy birthday.
in no particular order
Dear, Keng guan, Azmi, Junxian, Peizhen, Jonk, Evon, Eli, Yuen, Bridget, Kenneth, Zhipeng, Shan, Candy, Fanny, Lynette, Zhaogen, Ambrose, Chuying, Yiting & Weiqi (thanks for the surprise phone call), Ken Khoon, Kim, Li Lin, Clara, Michelle, Sathish, Seow, WeiLing, Julaiha, Irene.
and xoxo((((((((((((:
and of course daddy, mummy, lil brat, ahma, yiyi, apple, jiujiu, shenshen((:

*************************************************

nownow, i think this year's birthday is the best in many years i can rmb.
this year, i got to celebrate with ahma on the 27th, ahma was super happy de la
today, i got to celebrate with dearest DEAR!!!

touched up my bsbm report in the morning.
then made daddy send me to bedok mrt to train to orchard to meet dear. shopped at OG & JL, then to Paragon for lunch-cum-dinner at Ding Tai Feng. then to Far East to do more shopping. Dessert break at SLICES for yummy ice. then to Wisma for more shopping.

Although my heels were killing me, i still had a WONDERLICIOUS TIME WITH DEAR!! ((((:

thank you prettypretty super wonderful DEAR!! and omg, i love the bracelet dear gave me!!

am still waiting for my buffet treat from mummy and daddy and i shall be really satisfied with my 18th birthday. quiet but satisfying.
and my silent wish came true!! (((((((((((((((((((((:

*****************************************************

cannot wait for time to pass a lil faster.
so i can meet the 4b ppl for dinner tml.
so i can meet haoning for K on wed.
so i can meet twelve for outing on thrus.

well, hey,

PRIS IS FINALLY EIGHTEEN!!!!

and i love dear till i go spastic.

2008-12-27T15:58:00.002+08:00

just when i thought everything seemed bleak and was just about to give up,
your msg came to remind me of my existance in your life.
i'm still somebody.

THANK YOU!! (((: *hugs*

xoxo

its 1 more day!
and it looks like my silent wish will come true pls?

2008-12-26T11:32:00.005+08:00

FREAK YOU ALL.
I AM NO LONGER A KID.
I DON'T NEED KIDDISH PRESENTS ANYMORE.
TYVM.

i sound like a materialistic ungrateful bitch, but i dont care. i really dont need a furry photoframe, lacy pyjamas and pinkish unclassy minute jewellery box.
talk about disappointment

the only present that i'm super happy with is the money given by first aunt, which i used to buy the beeyoutifool kimono top.
and the present which should have came long ago, the hair straightener

gosh. what a bad x'mas this year.
happy boxing day ya.

dearrrr, can you plan my birthday outing for me, pretty please.
cause i'm still sadsad over the fact that there's nomore nicenice buffet for my 18 birthday. yucksyuckks. i'm celebrating with ahma. :((
badbad eoy

2008-12-25T11:57:00.001+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

2008-12-23T21:48:00.002+08:00

imma happyhappy girl yesterday and today ((((((:

met up with kimkim, xuanxuan, deardear for dinner at waruku!! yummyyummyyayyay!!

then shopping with dear at tampines today!! ((: bought a babydoll top from cotton on and a same kimono top as dear!! hahaha. dear loves shopping with pris la, coz i help her find clothes hohoho.
butbut i'm rather broke alr la. spent 50+ today alr.
butbut nvm, i'mma still going shopping with dear on sundayyy!! weeeee :DDDD

meeting sucker tml at the lib so he can teach me stupid excel. rawrs.

BYEEES

2008-12-22T13:07:00.004+08:00

i am in need of desperate shopping because i just cleared 3 big bags of clothes from my old cupboard and i need more clothes to fill my new bigbig wardrobe.
but i am in need of desperate cash because i just busted 100bucks on my jeans but i still need prettypretty clothes for cny.
but my most precious dear is to the rescue and i'm going to shop with dear tml yay!! i love my dear and i should be spending my birthday with dear yay!! lousy mummy's gging to jb can

and hahaha, i switched off all those stupid notifications from stupid facebook, and tagged and all those shit. because i hate receiving mails that some idiot superpoked me or asking me to reply those stupid things. i have better things to do, like cursing those idiots. HAHAHA.

BYEEEE~

2008-12-19T22:10:00.000+08:00

SAY HELLO TO

.

. .

. . .

. . . .

. . . . .

. . . . . .

. . . . . . .

. . . . . . . .

. . . . . . . . .

. . . . . . . . . .

. . . . . . . . .

. . . . . . . .

. . . . . . .

. . . . . .

. . . . .

. . . .

. . .

. .

.

my new earhole!! (((:
hehhehheh. i finally pierced it yesterday tgt with loveli and yuenny. fucking pain but, me like!! :DDDD dear don angry with me ok.

shall post the gazillion of photos taken yest at clark quay when i get it from loveli and yuenny. ((: love themm.

zoo with the class today was quite fun. the childish guys are super childish laa.

emoemo prispris sayyys byebye

2008-12-17T10:28:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LILIN!! ((:

2008-12-15T00:00:00.002+08:00

i am as stupid as a stupid dumbass toot dumbo.
to think that i can still think about what present to give you for x'mas
when everything is just dust under thicker layers of dust.

i hate my guts to still be able to harbour hope that things might take a turn for the better.
fuck it la.
all stupid nonsensical dreams.
go away. shooshooshoo

2008-12-11T11:38:00.003+08:00

the silly girl elieli got too much time to spare, but dont want to go out with me, so she did this for me. hahaha. saves me time from uploading manymany photos. lols

wa lao, i look damn spastic and short

and i think i damn haolian laaa.

pray this gets me a distinction. lols.

.........................................................................

evon tagged me. and i'm so bored and not in report mood, so i decided to do it.

1 . Who's the person that tagged you :
evon

2 . R/s between you & her:
current classmates

3 . Three impressions of her :
- loud
-like to suan ppl
-helpful

4 . If they become your enemies :
i dunno

5 . What will you say to the person you like very much :
nothing. i shy de.

6 . Characteristics I like about myself :
i dunno.. perfectionist?

7 . Characteristics I hate about myself :
too perfectionist. keeping things to myself

8 . For the person who you hate , you say :
f you. go and die.

9 . What do people feel about you :
dao, emo, tempremental
10 . Your crush :
crushed

11 . Pass this to 10 people .
1. Shuhuan
2. Eli
3. Yuen
4. Li Lin
5. Kim
6. Zhiyu
7. chongxiang
8. hayden
9. zhaogen
10. ambrose

12 . If 5 & 7 were together ?
never possible.

13 . Who does 5 likes ?
i dunno lehhs. you ask her la

14 . What colour does 9 likes ?
black?

15 . Say something about 8 ?
i miss xiao hey!

16 .Who is 2 ?
my silly girl. my loveli. my cheap thrill partner

17 . Talk about 3 ?
she can be as emo and crazy as me. my soon-to-be drinking partner.

18. Who is 10's best friend ?
MEMEME.. lols

19 . Who's the sexiest among all ten ?
me lehhs. haha. no la. all of them are damn sexy.

20 . What colour does 4 like ?
hmmms. pink/white/blue? i forgot

21 . Is 4 single ?
single but unavailable

22 . Your relationship with 1 ?
(:

23 . Are 5 & 6 best friends ?
nah. they dont even know each other

24 . 9's surname ?
kwek

25 . 7's nickname ?
xiao didi, cx

26 . Say something to 3 ?
CLARK QUAY AND DRINK!

27 . Say something to help 9 ?
you dont need my help! lols

28 . Who do I admire ?
dear

29 . Where does 1 lives ?
the very colourful building at paya lebar

30 10 of them know who you like ?
noooooo.

31 .Say something to 6 when you see her ?
hello

32 . 10's spouse ?
ASK HIM!!!! haha.. his camp bed

i'm done. gging to slack before sending my shorts to the tailor and to NN's hse for dinner

2008-12-10T14:22:00.002+08:00

我和你从未分手- 潘裕文

心是片土地我是一个园丁
种一朵花叫做爱情
呵护著不离不弃
当花季远去眼泪带我旅行
你好吗我好想你
常常写信寄给回忆
我和你从未分手你住在我心中
谁也不能把你赶走
一颗心只有一份永久
给了谁就无法回收
我和你从未分手你活在我爱中
不准人来人往挑拨
一个错要花几倍伤痛
才能扭转时空重回感动
重回笑容手牵手
空空的夜空城市燃起灯火
每一盏灯一种寂寞
愿你幸福别漂流
蓝蓝的忧愁搬进我的生活
越想放手越是紧握
越往前走越是回头
我和你从未分手你住在我心中
谁也不能把你赶走
一颗心只有一份永久
给了谁就无法回收
我和你从未分手你活在我爱中
不准人来人往挑拨
一个错要花几倍伤痛
才能扭转时空重回感动
重回笑容手牵手
我没用多没用
我推开窗户思念一直推不走
我在梦里掉了一个梦
我和你从未分手你住在我心中
谁也不能把你赶走
一颗心只有一份永久
给了谁就无法回收
我和你从未分手你活在我爱中
不准人来人往挑拨
一个错要花几倍伤痛
才能扭转时空重回感动
重回笑容手牵手

i cried when i heard the song last night. arghs.

afterall, after so long of not thinking about it all, everything just came rushing back during the 3 days of work. w/o the everything that used to be present, it felt like everything became more bland than ever. in addition to the teasing from the 2 of them, there were times when i really felt like breaking down, but it never came. it sucked really big time i swear.

it started, but never ended. its like this never ending journey of guessing what we are both thinking. a maze where we never seem to find a common point to continue.

missing everything like fuck. come back to me, past.

the song's just a relation, it doesn mean literally

2008-12-09T17:59:00.008+08:00

BYEBYE to the yucky mugging MSTs!!! =DDDDD
YOYO to the lovely reporty HOLIDAYS!!! XDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXD

met up with loveli and jialing after papers. love them to bitsbits.
worked with mummy, elvin, alex at expo from sat to mon. stupid usuals revoked my feelings for xyz again man. rawrsss.
went to NHC just now for some lookabout and stuff. hollymama. i'm so going to want to choose cardiac option. i wanna learn moremoremore about the heart. im crazyyyyy.
KFC-ed & random shopping with my bro. blahs. hahaha.

..............................................................
on another hand,
my holiday schedule is not really up yet. haha
so far,

10/12 - biophysics report meeting, duty
12/12 - duty
13/12 - shopping with family
14/12 - shopping with clara
15/12 - movie with Li Lin
17/12 - Li Lin's bday, duty
18/12 - shopping with love
19/12 - PTN
20/12 - shopping at JB
21/12 - KBox with cousins
22/12 - CIP, waaruku with dear, kim, qi
24/12 - day dinner, duty
25/12 - X'MAS!!!
26/12 - makan outing
28/12 - MY BIRTHDAY!! ((:

actually its quite full le hor.. haha.

...............................................................
and hahaha, i've been bloghopping quite frequently these few days, and i've come up with my longlonglong wishlist alr. hahah.
lets see:

1. black/navy dress e.g

i really like this dress

2. This top from HERE

3. printed hoodies e.g

4. vests e.g

5. skirts e.g

6. black, white, electric blue MANGO racerback

7. pink NIKE bottle

8. GUESS/BILLABONG wallet

9. square buckle belt, floral waist belt

10. watch

11. gemstone sandals

pictures from: hollyhoque.livejournal, robotninjas.livejournal, sweetvinyl.livejournal, hollysurprise.livejournal, sweetvinyl.livejournal, willove.livejournal

.......................................................................

what a long post.

BYEEE

2008-11-27T21:22:00.002+08:00

prispris has manymanymany reasons to be a happy girl until saturday ends!!

1. i finally got my first 25/25 for a test!! :DDDD ignore the fact that it was quite easy and 6 people for full marks. i'm happy and thats that!!
2. my chem teacher promised me a piece of lovely clothing from online if i get full marks for my MST!! and i am SOSOSO going to work damn hard for it!! weeeee~
3. my brobro finally bought me my mouse for my lappy!! ((:
4. there's no school tml, and i can hole up and own the library with dumbo tml.
5. i will be meeting eyegang on saturday!! (((((((((: WEEEEEEEEE!! i cnt wait man.. i miss the girls sososo much!!! wooohoooo~

i shall be happy and watch some teevee before some mugging!!

:DDDDD

2008-11-23T10:24:00.002+08:00

i woke up early just to have breakfast with the other 3 family members, and decided to do my part of GEMs ppt. but, i have no idea of how to do it. and i got to do future developments, solutions and conclusion lehhhs. how to do when i don't have info, and the whole issue has died down, and its like a million miles from here, and isn it solved so how am i supposed to tell you to solve it. and i don't have the million info they're using and i cnt do conclusion.

so my conclusion is that i shall go do some constructive stuff, and wait for someone to wake up and come online so i can ask. obegood to me for ponning meeting to go shopping.

2008-11-22T20:04:00.002+08:00

i suddenly rmbed something that Li Lin told me yesterday

its impossible for a guy & a girl to just be platonic friends, unless you have resentment for the other person

and it got me thinking..
till now, i have had 3 good male friends. by good friends, i mean that i will msg him whenever i am happy, whenever i am sad, whenever i need someone to talk to.

and we have,

firstly and the longest, nightmareeeee. hahaha. i have no resentment for nightmare lehhs. ever since he took us in sec 2, he has been helping the squad, and after that, helping me in my everyday life also!! nightmare's a reallyreally super on buddy man. he always has a share of my problems!! sad guy la he, stuck with my problems for so long!! NO RESENTMENT!! nightmare rockkkks.

secondly, loser. wellwell, resentment was present like sec3/sec4. hahahaha. dear knows why. hahaha. but now loser is part of the category of the good friends. tell me if your friend will help you transfer money for ur online purchases and nv chase you to return!? gotgotgot?! loser is lehhs. hahaha.

lastly, and most recently, sucker. what to say. sucker is sucker. refer to blahblahblah. i shall not say much.

SO, as much as i want to agree, i have to disagree with Li Lin. hahaha.

on another note,
i still cnt wait for holidays. i alrd thought of things to do, people to ask out. haha.
there's
1. movie with Li Lin,kim
2. meetup with the doctors
3. night drinking/spastic/crazy/shopping with yuen and eli
4. shopping with clara
5. 2d bbq
6. squad outing / nightmare
7. makan outing
8. K with HN
9. birthday dinner with family
10. DEAR (holidays are not holidays if i dont meet dear pls)
and sadly,
11. my laptop, for reports. :(

i shall go make myself happy with the many things i can do during the holidays.

byes. its all so obvious, yet obscure

2008-11-21T22:13:00.003+08:00

because of her, i had a great afternoon today. MOS Burger brought back lots of memories, lots of gossips and talks exchanged.
walked ard bugis street. bought my skinny belt, and an emo tee! yayyay. haha super emo pris yo.
had tea, and talked somemore.

THANKS LOVELY!!

to end it off,

i hope things are obvious enough for you

2008-11-20T20:09:00.009+08:00

officially veryveryvery fucking pissed.
fucking program we have to load

.......................................................

i need a hug desperately now, totally
feeling like a total crap, ultimate depression

and i miss my EYEGANG like f***, seriously. they're in post-As now, yet i'm stuck in this !#%*&. i so want to go crazy with them, go overseas with them, go do legal things with them. i want holidays to come like, RIGHT NOW. come to me holidays, will you?

hell ya, i shall go mugmugmugmugmugmug my time away, so stupid MSTs will go away, and holidays will come, and i won't be so :( :( :( :( :(

but first, i shall sweep bugis street tml.. say yay to retail therapy, and yay to lovely girl!!
and i thank my lovEli for talking to me ok, 我的爱

and my bro is damn pro la, he fixed my vista! nananah loser, i aint going to throw my compaq away. haha

and i need nightmare now alsoooooo. nightmare, nightmare time for you to reappear plsssss

i shall go say hello to my notes.

想想想了又怎样
不说谁也不知道

but before that,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLARA!!!

2008-11-18T18:20:00.003+08:00

i love the way you know my schedule
i love the way you make me feel like a blob yet make me smile
i love the way you know how to make me happy
i love the way you disturb me

but,
love's nothing
but only dreams

anws,
yucksyucksyucks
my lappie is down again la freak.
my beloved vista's not working!!!
rawrs.
so pissed with compaq alr la grrrrrrr

and plsplspls, do not try me

2008-11-17T22:57:00.006+08:00

because of the whatever advantages we feel we can get from any relationship, be it friendship or boy-girl relationship,
we lie
and lie with our eyes wide open.

the world is filled with wide-eyed liars
everyone is.
me included.

this freaking world is so damn complicated that you don't know who's the one who is truely truthful to you. how fucking complicated can this supposedly simple world be.

on the other hand, i am very looking forward to friday thank you. i can finally meet and shop with my lovely girl. (:

2008-11-16T16:34:00.003+08:00

Breathe Again - Juwita Suwito

Have you wondered how it feels when it's all over
Wondered how it feels when you just have to start a new
Never knowing where are you going
When you face a brand new day
It used to be that way
Now I just close my eyes and say

I just wanna breathe again
Learn to face the joy and pain
Discover how to laugh a little,
cry a little, live a little more

I just wanna face today
Forget about the woes of yesterday
Maybe if I hope a little, try a little more
I'll breathe again

Starting out again is never easy
Disappointments come and gone
But life still moves on
With the better flock
It's a brand new start that might just work my way
No need to walk away Don't wanna leave lives replay

Things will work out fine
If you can find the courage to look past the night
To see the break of dawn

2008-11-11T18:46:00.005+08:00

i want a cookie monster hp charm, pretty pretty pretty please please please?
and a new wallet, pretty pretty please please?
and a new pair of white canvas shoes, pretty please?
and a new nike/adidas/puma/billabong/roxy tote bag, can i?
and a new classy beautiful watch, may i?
and a new pair of white shorts, will i?

sore throat, running nose,
but
duty tml eh (:

will you, will you, will you be my mr sweet?
haha

2008-11-10T23:05:00.004+08:00

to the the ones on the extreme right and left of the photo,

thanks for meeting the ugly girl in the middle of the photo today for tea. i really appreciate it. at least now things doesn seem that bad, coz i'll rmb our stupidness.
i cannot wait for your As to end so we can do more stupid things together.

Looi Siew Yuen and Elizabeth Chew, Priscilla Ho loves you both <3

希望你说的都是真心话

2008-11-08T10:21:00.006+08:00

say hello to my new cookie monster ((:

sick~

DEAR, DONT SAD PLEASE!!! i don't know what happened, but my phone is 24/7 on,
online whenever i am home, i'll always be here to listen de!! CHEER UP DEAR!!!

不知不觉的
慢慢慢慢的
不能没有你
开始依赖你

2008-11-05T22:38:00.003+08:00

harlows.

http://ugc.mediacorptv.sg/heygorgeousDetail.aspx?campaign=heygorgeous&Item_ID=UGC-3386&Album_ID=795

PLEASE HELP TO VOTE!!!

DO HELP!! Pretty please

thank you!!

http://ugc.mediacorptv.sg/heygorgeousDetail.aspx?campaign=heygorgeous&Item_ID=UGC-3386&Album_ID=795
http://ugc.mediacorptv.sg/heygorgeousDetail.aspx?campaign=heygorgeous&Item_ID=UGC-3386&Album_ID=795
http://ugc.mediacorptv.sg/heygorgeousDetail.aspx?campaign=heygorgeous&Item_ID=UGC-3386&Album_ID=795
http://ugc.mediacorptv.sg/heygorgeousDetail.aspx?campaign=heygorgeous&Item_ID=UGC-3386&Album_ID=795

cookie monster makes me (:

2008-11-04T14:16:00.004+08:00

losing my ezlink card puts me in a huge shopping mood.
i want to go shopping, like nowwwwwww.

some things i don't want to say,
but,
i question genuinity.

2008-11-03T19:51:00.004+08:00

i will give my everything
just to reverse everything
before i let everything go
just like the balloons

how i wish it was you

能不能不爱了因为爱太痛了
我痛得快死了却无法把你忘了
能不能不爱了爱情它太痛了
我痛得快死了却无法把爱割舍

2008-11-02T16:49:00.005+08:00

to:
eli, yuen, fel, bridget, jia lin, meifen, li lin, changling, jonk, maimai, nana, louis, hayden, hong hui, kenny, joel, nic, timo, wee kee, joshua, yijie, jac, racheline, pinqi, zhengrui, kangyu, jes, mingjin, jeanette, haoning, isaac, fangyun, koktong, azmi e.t.c

GOOD LUCK FOR A's!!!!
it'll zoooommmmmm like a rocket and soon it'll be the last paper! hang in there!! jia you((((:

pris loves you all! :D

2008-11-01T21:05:00.001+08:00

限时的遗忘 - 潘嘉丽

阴天的操场想你的肩膀
对着你的那个方向大声讲早安
往事像影片往后飞转
转了多少圈烦不烦
我想现在苏醒还不晚
也只能这样了我想

两人的冬天聊天等天亮
头发和永远原来都可以剪短
我也知道我可以生还
就算日子要天天算
但是我会很勇敢
会比你想的更勇敢

限时遗忘让我跑过悲伤
他们不是说忘了梦好简单
那些年的一切今天一刀两断
离开时要把眼泪擦干
我心里呼喊

两人的冬天聊天等天亮
头发和永远原来都可以剪短
我也知道我可以生还
就算日子要天天算
但是我会很勇敢
会比你想的更勇敢

限时遗忘让我跑过悲伤
他们不是说忘了梦好简单
那些年的一切今天一刀两断
看看世界是不是一样

限时遗忘不要让梦空转
要再次起飞就要更有胆量
站在起跑线上计算爱的能量
离开时要把眼泪擦干
我心里呼喊

一个人看这一片天空
它慢慢的从灰色变蓝
一个人在这一片操场
跑赢了孤单流的汗
我为胜利鼓掌奖牌是阳光

限时遗忘让我跑过悲伤
他们不是说忘了梦好简单
那些年的一切今天一刀两断
离开时要把眼泪擦干
我心里呼喊
我心里呼喊

2008-11-01T20:20:00.002+08:00

learn

learn to let go
learn to accept
learn to better

not in the best moods
not in the worst moods
yet, my motivation, gone.

on a brighter side,
i'm collecting my bangle on mon (:

tml, a better day

2008-10-29T23:25:00.002+08:00

if, and only if realities are as sweet as dreams are,
i wouldn wish for much
just someone, to listen.

thanks dear, sucker, loser

2008-10-27T19:25:00.003+08:00

i'm buying this f21 bangle online! ((: if it doesn suit me, it'll become clara's sweet 16 birthday present :D
i told you, not being in the right mind makes a bigggg hole in my pocket. rawrs.

plus side, mummy's paying me to help lil brat with his studies. so i'll get 165bucks extra / month. which translates to more shopping and a good meal with dear every month >.<

the very fact that i haven't gotten over him is so very evident as soon as i saw the old folder of msges in the old phone.

2008-10-24T16:26:00.000+08:00

the world doesn revolve around you and only you.

2008-10-20T11:12:00.007+08:00

i take back what i said about wanting to stay in school for long periods of time.
home, is the best refuge.

only the 2nd week of school, and i'm ponning lectures & tutorials.
its raining freaking heavily now, and i just don't want to go to school to face the something, the-whatever-i'm-trying-to-evade-from. LOLS.

i shall make good use of time at home to ~~sleep, eat, watch tv, onlineshop~~complete crs assignment, research on biophysics project.

TA~

lost, very

2008-10-18T10:43:00.002+08:00

school's really boring and irritating with lousy, stupid teachers.
every passing hour is just a prelude to the ultimate dismissal.
seems like there's going to be lots of self-study and less online-time from now on.

on a side note,
i cnt wait to go to ee's hse for swimming, K and dinner later (:
and dinner with NN co. tml.

BYES~

2008-10-17T16:31:00.005+08:00

for you and only you,

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY,
desmond

love,

pris

2008-10-16T12:17:00.004+08:00

thrust nothing, question everything - Mr Christopher Gill

confidence is key

2008-10-13T16:53:00.004+08:00

being closed up gives pris a ferocious appetite.

BON APPETITE

on a side note: I freaking HATE PHYSICS.

2008-10-12T10:50:00.008+08:00

612 星球

满园玫瑰我以爲找到我那一朵
认真爱了却狠狠刺伤我的双手
责备什麽人也没有用
玫瑰都红难免看错

望着天空爱是风活在童话里头
小王子说有些事流浪过才会懂
原来每颗心都有个洞
找不到真爱会一直寂寞

我但愿有一个人在等我
在属於我的612星球
好让我忍着痛也愿意往下走
不快乐至少要有梦
一定会有一个人在等我
无条件拥抱着我的所有
想遇见我还要翻越多少山丘
花别谢太快请你等等我

擦干眼泪一个人漂流在这宇宙
小王子说爱一定开在某个角落
不想相爱的人那麽多
我会幸福吗在什麽时候

我但愿有一个人在等我
在属於我的612星球
好让我忍着痛也愿意往下走
不快乐至少要有梦
一定会有一个人在等我
无条件拥抱着我的所有
想遇见我还要翻越多少山丘
花别谢太快请你等等我

我但愿有一个人在等我
在属於我的612星球
好让我忍着痛也愿意往下走
不快乐至少要有梦
一定会有一个人在等我
无条件拥抱着我的所有
想遇见我还要翻越多少山丘
花别谢太快请你等等我

yuen and eli got me hooked on this song. LOLS.

new blogskin. i like how the headings portray this certain message that i don't know how to explain. lols.
haven't been in the best of moods. from that to this, one whole bunch of crap seriously. why must everything come in the final few days of my holidays? not to mention the stupid visit to the doctor which saw me with a new batch of medicine lasting 3 months, and will cause weight gain. honestly, i should just die should i? i'm so fucking tired of popping pills already. i dont know, feeling damn bad since then. not to mention the absense of MOF dessert.

school's starting tml, and i cannot wait for it, honestly. it beats staying home and thinking about stupid things. although i'd miss the countless outings with dearest dear. sighs. but at least there's SMs in school, things will be better, won't they? idk. and i cnt wait to go back to duty. i miss doing duty.

and omg, i'm like alr thinking about my birthday and i want mummy and daddy to bring me to that 70++/person buffet at marina mandarin. we saw it on teevee the other day, and i was raving to mummy about the spread of sashimi available.
going out with dear brings out the foodie in me totally. i've got so many places i want to dine at. hehheh lols. until my rich prince comes to fulfill my wishes, i shall save up and go with dear (: and no nightmare, my prince will not become poor

talk about saving, i'm still waiting for my duty allowance man. where the hell issit? i need it to pay zhiyu and loser la. and also my shopping. shittass. i still feel like shopping my ass off, just a pity i dont have my atm card in my possession. or i think i'd spend like hundreds w/o knowing. and a sidenote, online shopping has made me lose interest in street shopping. lOLS.

what a random post.
BYES~

the past, just letting it go

[UPDATE 06:58pm]

sometimes i really hate it at home. i don't understand why they cannot just control their ~~smelly~~ temper, why they must quarrel over small matters. it just spoils the mood ok. damnit.
now i so cnt wait for tml to come. so i can get my ass to school and not face them so often. i'm so determined to stay out late, doing whatever, or just close myself in my room and do my work. honestly, this sucks. big time

[UPDATE 12:31am]

i swear i'm going broke. i just ordered 3 tops from online, tgt with the girls. man. someone save me!!

2008-10-11T12:00:00.002+08:00

its 11/10/2008 today.
18 years ago, a girl who would be my dear was born.
and so, today is her 18th birthday!

so..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR!!

((((((((((((((((((:

dear has been my dear for 4 years and counting! yay!

let me recap 18 why-i-love-my-dears
here goes.

1. dear brings her dear for good food
2. dear goes shopping with her dear
3. dear listens to her dear talk nonsense
4. dear is sososo patient when explaining things to her stupid dear
5. dear won't ps her dear
6. dear goes out late, so her dear can sleep longer too
7. dear is her dear's fashion consultant
8. dear is not afraid to express her love for her dear
9. DEAR LOVES HER DEAR TOO
10. dear has her darling but still loves her dear
11. dear comforts her dear when her dear is sad
12. dear has imba comforting skills
13. dear needs her dear to nag her to study
14. dear teaches her dear manymany ways to escape mummy
15. dear treats her dear as her confidante
16. dear makes her dear keep her room clean
17. dear makes fun of hayden with her dear
18. DEAR IS DEAR, and thats why her dear LOVES DEAR!!

yay!! :DDDD

after cracking my brains for 18 why-i-love-my-dears, now i must crack my brain for a/many present(s) for my now-legal dear!!

but before i go,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR!!

pris loves dear tonnes!!

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

♥, pris

2008-10-09T10:58:00.011+08:00

dear came to my house yest, and she complained that my room is messy! =x
being bored now, i shall go TIDY my room!! yay! :D

.....................................................

[UPDATE 1:20pm]

DONE WITH TIDYING MY ROOM!! haha. except inside my wardrobe. coz tidying inside would mean more clothes OUT, and no new clothes in, i must as well, leave it be, till i get more new clothes IN. LOLS.

super lazy to type, just look at before & after ok.

my study table

my bag table, i threw away like so many bags can, now i'm only left with 4 bags, i need new bags!

the top of my wardrobe, and dear, i will never give away my 1-eyed pikachu okay!

nownow,

the 2 bags of rubbish i threw away, not including bags

look at my 'collection' of 8 days, going to get daddy to sell to karang guni, then the moolah will be mine!!

yayyay!! DEAR HAPPY WITH ME LE MA!? haha
dear should come to my house more often, then she'll complain, then i'll pack my stuff eh.

shall go take my ~~well-deserved~~ lunch!

..............................................................

[UPDATE 4:45pm]

mymy, i forgot to mention that i found $40 while i was cleaning my room!! 40bucks lehhs. i can like go another round of MOF-ing and shopping with dear lehhs!! hehheh. all 40bucks were found in those angpow i kept for dunno what reasons!! now i'm happy!! :DDDD

andand, i was trying the shorts i bought yesterday. its nicenicenice ok!! i love it lots!! pray that they will get the white one too! plsplspls? heh.
AND DEAR, the bf tee, tucked into the shorts is nicenice also!! heh! ilovedear!! (((:

..........................................................

[UPDATE 11:12pm]

YUCKS!! mummy doesn want to go to MOF tml. eeeee de lor. daddy wants to go the alexandra to collect his camera and buy my battery. i'm thinking of getting a new lappie next year, when all the new poly kiddos come in, then got alot of discounts!! hehheh.

i think i 觉悟 already. after looking at his PM for so many days now, i think, its really time for me to let go of everything. i really dont want to be burdened by all these. rawrs. its emo time again, and i really feel like SPENDING ALOT!! i mean it, like those kind just take monet out of my wallet w/o thinking kind.

..................................................................
i think i wont be seeing dear for a longlonglong time alr lor, yucks

~~MOF tml with parents! yayyay! thanks to dear's membership card!!~~
DEAR'S THE LOVE<3

BYESS

2008-10-08T23:25:00.002+08:00

yummayes

i love dear lots. had a nicenice time with her.
bought black shorts and bf tee! its 2 things off my wishlist!!
want to get my vest and waist belt another time.

i don't like my ruined hair. why do hairdressers like to cut bangs and spoil my hair?! :(

DEAR is still da best! <3

2008-10-07T22:47:00.003+08:00

Until I Get Over You - Christina Milian

Woke up today thinking of you
Another night that I made my way through
So many dreams still left in my mind
But they can never come true
I press rewind and remember when
I close my eyes and I'm with you again
But in the end I can still feel the pain, every time I hear your name

[Chorus]
The sun won't shine since you went away
Seems like the rain's falling every day
There's just one heart, where there once was two
But that's the way it's gotta be,
'til I get over you

[Verse 2]
Walked through the park, in the evening air
I heard a voice and I thought you were there
I run away but I just can't escape
Memories of you everywhere
They say that time will dry the tears
But true love burns for a thousand years
Give my tomorrows for one yesterday
Just to know that I could have you here

[Bridge]
When will this river of tears stop fallin'
Where can I run so I won't feel alone
Can't walk away when the pain keeps callin'
I've just gotta take it from here on my own
But it's so hard to let go

[[ i've been listening to this song on repeat, its like everything going on repeat. the feelings' all back. there's nothing much that i can do to salvage the past 4 months, can i? somehow i wish things will be different and reversed, but i know its not very possible. all i can do now, is hope that i can get over it, just be friends, good friends ]]

..................................................................

i heart eyegang.

hello to dear tml!